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Hey, Moonskr! For many years I had the same problem. I attracted people into my life who would unload on me, and I let them walk all over me. Once they got what they wanted they disappeared. When I became really, really sick I suddenly found out who my friends really were.

I cut a lot of people out of my life for that reason. I learned it is better to have only one good friend than 10 who will use and abuse you.

I read a good book along time ago called How to Say No Without Feeling Guilty. An eye opener indeed.

Today I have a few close true friends and my cat, my bunny and my budgie for loyalty.

moonskr

i love what you have written, the way you explain things is so clever

i relate to everything you are saying and i wish there were something i could say to help

is there anyway you could get hold of the hamilton ppl and tell them to hurry up and send your stuff through??

you are determined to get help and get the right help,
you have the strength to get through each day
you have the guts to keep going and be a excellent mother to your children

and i hope you are so very very proud of yourself for just putting one foot infront of the other.

take care

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where in the king country are you if you dont me asking?

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oh my god i used to live there!!!!!!
i loved it there
and that is where i got some really excellent help too

i went thru the kokori trust
they were great

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well its a long story
but taumarunui is not my home town
so i came home to auckland
i saw a lady at kokori named annie or anne
i actually found her card the other day when going thru all my junk
i think i may have thrown it out!
see ya never should out stuff!
lol

i found them a lil bit slow to start
but it was just b4 xmas when i went to them so that is to be expected
but they gave me so much support
they refered me to mental health and i was seeing a very very wondeful counsellor up at the hospital every couple of weeks
they saved my sanity
i had the nurse from the kokori trust doctors, visit me too with annie
it was awesome
i hope it works out for you!

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oh that sux!!!!
the funding must have run out

her name was ann sheilds, it just came to me lol
well i think it was her

i am sure they will look after you
they are a great bunch

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just feel sick of it all today, pushed down by the thought that nothing's going to change any time soon. Nothing i can do changes anything, the time just drags on and on with no end to anything in sight. Wonder how long i can drift like this, i don't want to be like this forever but i worry its all i can do.

moonskr

hugs, big big big big hugs.

thankyou

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i made a post secret piccy, and i love it
might make another one, it feels nice to be able to say something i'd never say to anyone, and not have to worry about anyone knowing about it.

jeez, just had one of the neighbours kids here for an hour babysitting, it was awful.
i know they're incredibly hard work but i'd forgotten just how bad, don't listen to a word anyone says. it reminds me again how thankful i should be that my kids are so well behaved and would never act like that, something i can be happy about at least.