Re: my journal

by Guest Fri Feb 12, 2010 10:00 pm

Hi Moonskr

I did a wee goggle for location of king country - not knowing where that is and waikato was mentioned in the region (dumb sth Islander here) - there are still a few of us left. Anyway had a look for EPS or crisis mental health ph numbers. If I have the location right the number is (07) 839 8899.

I have personal experience with an EPS team in the sth Island and they have 'sorted' out the crisis - sometimes for respite or some time-out in hospital, to be assessed etc. Just thought this may help. flower

If I don't have the right region then perhaps you could google your area for the EPS or crisis team.

I hope you can get the help you need, and sometimes, the best thing is some time - out.

Arohanui
Poetry

by moonskr Sat Feb 13, 2010 2:49 am

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by lil_miss_haley Tue Feb 16, 2010 1:32 am

What did your midwife say about the nasty lady? Thats good to hear bubs is doing well moon Smile

And that your powerbill is all sorted, good on dad. Maybe he has suffered from depression problems in the past and might have a little bit of an idea what your going through? Just an idea.

Sometimes you have to wonder why certain people get into mental heathcare, I'm sure theres some lovely ones out there but the majority don't seem to be.

by moonskr Tue Feb 16, 2010 1:56 am

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by Gabriell Tue Feb 16, 2010 8:59 pm

moonskr wrote:the thought of having another child on my own is terrifying, i can't do it. can't afford it when i can hardly manage now, and i'll never be able to cope with no sleep and no downtime and the others to run round after. wanted to put it up for adoption but i gave up that idea cause i thought i'd never be able to go through with it and it would destroy me, but maybe will have to reconsider, i just can't handle it all on my own. what i'm going to do if the baby decides to cry all day and its the weekend and the others want attention too i don't know, i can just picture myself in tears trying desperately to cheer everyone up without a shit show in hell.
and what if i have no milk, i had heaps the other times but if i still cant eat where's it going to come from? don't want to have to buy formula.

can't get put on any drugs now cause i've only got 10 weeks left. was only willing to try it if i could go on something for a few weeks, get councilling sorted, get eating/sleeping sorted, then wean off in time for it to clear before the birth, and continue councilling. But not enough time now and i don't think i'm going to get councilling either. and too scared to go if i do.

Hi Moonskr, I am Gabby.

The thoughts and feelings your having right now are understandable. I am sending you a big cyber hug

sick of being blamed for everything

Having unsupportive ex, having a baby on the way and while trying to cope with the other children on your own while worrying about finances and being unwell is huge.

My ex-partner and I had broken up when I learned I was four months pregnant. My ex was quite verbally abusive and had an alcohol problem. When I learned I was pregnant I had to go off meds until after my son was born and had counselling before and after I was pregnant. I was frightened and scared to raise this baby on my own and living from day to day on very little income, but I made it thru. I made sure I went back on Meds as soon as my son was born and learned about what was available to single mothers with depression from Women's Centres, Citizen's advice, the internet. At the time I had no one I could really turn to and no family to call on for help.
You are so not alone in this. We hear you. Hold tight. my journal - Page 2 870194

by moonskr Wed Feb 17, 2010 12:39 am

thanks Gabriell Smile

when i'm my usual self i feel like i can handle everything and it'll all work out ok, just lately i can't bring myself round to thinking that and i'm stuck with this image of an impossibly hard task that i'm no way capable of.

there must be thousands of women who have felt the same and battled on to make everything turn out right for their kids, so i'm sure i can too eventually.

by moonskr Wed Feb 17, 2010 1:08 am

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by lil_miss_haley Wed Feb 17, 2010 2:51 am

Aw moon Im so happy things are moving up! I think your pretty darn clever for not giving up and letting them beat you down even though it seems so much easier to do that at times. And hopefully the pills will help a bit, they might take a couple of days to work but then should kick in. Sending you many more hugs chick x

by moonskr Wed Feb 17, 2010 5:49 am

i made a smoothy and it was really yummy Cool

with juice and banana and frozen berries and flaxseed. thought i should try out my milkshake blender thingy, i've had it for ages and only ever used it for blending puppy food lol. so i am pleased and think i might start making them for all of us for breakfast.

thanks for the hugs Like a Star @ heaven

by moonskr Thu Feb 18, 2010 4:09 am

by mistameenah Sat Feb 20, 2010 6:17 am

hiya
its so nice to hear you are having a good day

gotta love those good days!!! Razz

by moonskr Sun Feb 21, 2010 8:11 pm

by mistameenah Sun Feb 21, 2010 9:32 pm

don't feel bad, well try not to feel bad lol

you could ring them and say
hey i am very sorry about friday
i was without transport
and things basically turned to custard
please make me another appointment

just be very matter of fact
you dont have to explain your life story to them
i mean you didnt do it on purpose
things happen

so ring them
be very plesant appologise for the inconveniance and ask for another one

you dont need to feel stink
i bet there are plenty of other ppl who miss appointments in the world
i bet it happens every day lol

p.s please excuse my very very bad spelling lol

good luck!!

by moonskr Mon Feb 22, 2010 3:49 am

by mistameenah Mon Feb 22, 2010 7:19 am

hehe
im really glad you are able to eat again
i couldnt imagine anything worse
than having no food in my belly
especially my pregnant belly!

im really pleased for you that the sleeping is getting better too

its amazing how a good sleep can make all the difference to your mood

by Gabriell Mon Feb 22, 2010 11:37 pm

I am very happy you get another opportunity to have your appointment. Nothing to feel embarassed about, especially here.

Fantastic to here you had some good sleeps and are able to enjoy food again. I was a lucky one in my pregnancy. I never suffered morning sickness. In fact didn't know I was pregnant until I was nearly 4 months gone as I was told it was highly unlikely I could conceive because of endometriosis, a tilted womb and poly cystic ovaries. Shocked

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