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Hi Moonskr, if you get in touch with your Hamilton Citizens Advice in Hamilton and ask for the telephone number of Supporting For Families they maybe able to provide some interim support for you and your family. They have workers who come to your home and help families working thru mental health issues.

I know when I worked as a manager of an 0800 crisis number a large part of my calls came from Hamilton. People highly stressed because they have slipped thru the public mental health system and were having difficulties locating private treatment. Your not alone in your frustration down there.

Remember even if you think you are bugging people, your not. It is there job to help you. So keep at it. You and your partner are not asking for anything you are not entittled to.

Gabbu

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this sux!!!!
what is wrong with these ppl??
why wont they refer you to the psychologist?
are they dum of something?
god
i feel for you
i wish i could beat them all on the head with a big block of wood!

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do you see the kokori trust gp?
my understanding of it all when i was down there was that you needed to be registered with their gp
im not sure if that will make things move faster for you, prolly not
but at least both of the parties looking after you, gp and mental health ppl will be of the same organisation

dose your midwife know how truely bad you are feeling?
the thoughts about not keeping the baby the lack of attachment
the fear of parenting again?

i know this is horrible for you
i know this is wearing you down

when i was pregnant with my last child
i was diagnosed with depression
but my dr didnt really know just how really really bad i felt
i used to go bed with anxiety attacks and pray for the morning to come so i would stop freaking out
it was awful awful
i had little feeling for my eldest son
i almost pushed him away
he was only 7
i wish they had done more for me at the time
as i have awful guilt over how i treated him
but, i was going absolutly farking crazy
i wanted to put into hospital and fixed
but
they didnt
and so i struggeld for another 3-4years before i was helped properly

i am worried for you and about you
because all that you are feeling and writing about is reminding me of me at that time in my life
and i know its so horrible and scary and that its like holding onto a cliff by the tips of your fingers

i think if you can, take that ladies offer up
the one who said to go back and talk
she may not have any awnsers for you
but letting some of what you feeling out may help
and having some one to rely on
will help.

i so wish there was more that could be done for you right now
i wish that the system wasnt so farking useless that it fails ppl like us

i hope that tomorrow is better than today
and that you are sleeping soundly tonight
and getting some much needed rest.

take care

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goodmorning

i hope you had a good sleep

i hope today brings you some smiles

just grabbing a minute on someone elses pc to say i still here, had our net cut off, should be back next week, trying to stay safe.

Hi Moonskr

Sending huge cyper-space hugs and hoping all is going well. I imagine that you may be very busy right now. I hope you have been given the support you need.

Hope to hear from you on TBBD. Arohanui Moon

hey moonskr

i hope all is good with you

take care