Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
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Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
...as my dad would say.
Gave myself a bit of a fright this morning. Yesterday was a very loooongg day and I pushed myself too hard. Managed to get to sleep last night even though away from home, but it was a creepy sleep full of nightsweats and stress dreams. Got woken this mornign by the phone and hubby with a question, managed to answer it before falling asleep again, felt like I was drugged...more nasty dreams and finally woke, if that is the right word as feel like crap, at quarter to 10.
You know, even if I had had a meeting, I don't think I could have gotten up. As I say, felt drugged.
Simple answer is that my body has just had enough and is refusing to cooperate with my crazy schedule. I have made steps to slow things down, but from the date that decision was made, there are still things I had already committed to do.
Please let me just get through the next two weeks and I can sleep for a month with no commitments!!!
Gave myself a bit of a fright this morning. Yesterday was a very loooongg day and I pushed myself too hard. Managed to get to sleep last night even though away from home, but it was a creepy sleep full of nightsweats and stress dreams. Got woken this mornign by the phone and hubby with a question, managed to answer it before falling asleep again, felt like I was drugged...more nasty dreams and finally woke, if that is the right word as feel like crap, at quarter to 10.
You know, even if I had had a meeting, I don't think I could have gotten up. As I say, felt drugged.
Simple answer is that my body has just had enough and is refusing to cooperate with my crazy schedule. I have made steps to slow things down, but from the date that decision was made, there are still things I had already committed to do.
Please let me just get through the next two weeks and I can sleep for a month with no commitments!!!
lowdown- Number of posts : 202
Location : waikato
Registration date : 2008-10-13
Re: Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
O dear lovely Lowdown
I am thinking of you today and hoping you get through the next few weeks more easily than your expecting. And then have a lovely relaxing regenrating and rejuvenating rest!
Take Care Lovely Lowdown
Hugs
Monsta
I am thinking of you today and hoping you get through the next few weeks more easily than your expecting. And then have a lovely relaxing regenrating and rejuvenating rest!
Take Care Lovely Lowdown
Hugs
Monsta
ZenMonsta- Number of posts : 541
Age : 55
Location : Auckland
Registration date : 2008-09-21
I to am having the same problem
when im feeling good i can handle everything that i take on, but i think im going down hill again, and everything is starting to mountain up on top of me. all of a sudden im tired, and have no real motivation. im feeling myself get worse but cant seem to stop it from happening
kidsandme- Number of posts : 85
Age : 46
Location : Morrinsville
Registration date : 2008-11-20
Re: Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
KandM, that's it exactly! Gotta learn to sit on my hands and not take things on when I am feeling good. Vicious cycle...
lowdown- Number of posts : 202
Location : waikato
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Re: Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
it is, but when i feel great i want to make up for the fact that ive done nothing for the last little while, and i feel i should be able to do the things i want to do and feel "normal" again, like i use to before getting ptsd.
kidsandme- Number of posts : 85
Age : 46
Location : Morrinsville
Registration date : 2008-11-20
Re: Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
Maybe its that we both need to redefine what 'normal' is for us...?
lowdown- Number of posts : 202
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Re: Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
maybe we do Lowdown, for me thats hard because i remember when i was healthy, it was only 4yrs ago, and i know its not my fault and i lay all the blame on my very traumatic experence and the person who did it to me, but i sooooo want to be the person i was.
I was a great person who helped others, I had my head screwed on right, i was a productive member of society and people looked to me to get stuff done and be on committees and such.
I was proud of who i was. now im not too sure.
it is true about it all being a vicious cycle, i wish it would stop turning.
I was a great person who helped others, I had my head screwed on right, i was a productive member of society and people looked to me to get stuff done and be on committees and such.
I was proud of who i was. now im not too sure.
it is true about it all being a vicious cycle, i wish it would stop turning.
kidsandme- Number of posts : 85
Age : 46
Location : Morrinsville
Registration date : 2008-11-20
Re: Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
there seem to be a lot of us on here who were the ones that others relied on to do stuff...its very hard to redefine yourself when that is no longer an option.
I am working on my 'farewell to Superwoman' speech to exorcise the whole 'gotta keep the whole world turning' shit on my shoulders. Time to find a new way to live LOL
I am working on my 'farewell to Superwoman' speech to exorcise the whole 'gotta keep the whole world turning' shit on my shoulders. Time to find a new way to live LOL
lowdown- Number of posts : 202
Location : waikato
Registration date : 2008-10-13
Re: Head writing cheques that your body can't cash
PS Kidsandme, you are not too far from me, if you ever feel like a coffee give a yell
lowdown- Number of posts : 202
Location : waikato
Registration date : 2008-10-13
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