Cant handle life!

hmmm could be interesting sleeping that way!

Well I am sure that it is not 2 nutters living together.... just 2 angry people.

what fueled it claire?

greasemonkey wrote:Ha! 2 friggin nutters!!!

To persue this to breaking point
is but a POWER-TRIP,
not love.

Frustration usually gives way
to distraction.Learning to trick Oneself
helps unstick the stuck.

Sleep head to Toe!

Cheers Greasemonkey, that is sooo true. It definately is a power trip. Which, sadly has been used on me and i am now using as an escape plan! I cant handle argueing, im not strong enough mentally or physically and always end up in tears, apologising or argreeing with the other person. I just dont have the confidence. I HATE this.

We even tried to bake a cake together. (Not usually my idea of fun but we had heaps of rotten bananas and well he bought the bananas and never ate them so i said he should make the cake but he said it was my idea for a cake so i have to help him) Anyhow we did it together and it was fun. The day was great. Weekend was great. That is ofcourse except for night time. Grrrrrrrr making a cake together is about as intimate as i can do at the moment and i HATE myself for this. Grrrrrr.

Hey I was like that about 6 months ago!! Except for not baking a cake, rather roller blading (and I was so bad at it..)

You will be ok, might be 6 hours, 6 weeks, 6 months or 6 years.. but you will be ok and the intimacy will reevolve..

Claire,

you would be best to
do more baking together.

Working together brings ppl closer
just as arguing the matter drives ppl apart.

Sleeping head to toe helps in as much as it allows the individual polarity
to right itself.Being Right is infact only going to produce one winner and one looser,where as love brings ppl together ehh!

I suggest,
the blindfolding both parties,
and getting on all fores on the carpet
and playing out your favorite animal.
No speaking aloud,only
ANIMAL SOUNDS!

hey GM

what is your avator from? A movie set?

JESUS- I feel the exact same as you on your first post. I wonder why I am like this when I have fantastic people who are donig what they can for me. I have no right to be like this when I have a great family, good job. It makes me hate myself even more!!!

hey, don't worry be happy!!

or so the song goes!!

you'll be fine qwerky, just keep telling yourself that!!

Quirky,
you may have been conditioned
that you are not supposed to enjoy life NOW
and got hit with the conditioning,

"put others Before Yourself"

Alot of ppl are ruled by whats laying-dormant in their sub-concious.
Conditioning accounts for alot of mental-illnesses.
Psychosomattic Healings uncover heaps of reasons why
ppl do things,absent-mindedly.

Its most important to find out,Why we are sickly.
Its a major part in healing ourselves.

I do not know why I have become the way I am..I just know that i am not the person I use to be. That I'm not happy like I use to be, and it kills me

Youre not dead YET! quirky

Sadness leads to melancholy....
But even this changes.
We cannot ever be the same person we think we are because the Moment changes,and the mind changes also.
Nothing in Life is Fixed!

nothing really ever will be when you think about it..fixed that is ..but what we can do..is learn to live with it.

That is very true.

yay!

I know things change. I wasn't the same person as I was when I was a child. I'm not like I was a couple of years ago and I really do hope I will be different in a couple of years ahead. But I'm in the present and this is what matters right now. Not the past,the future(but not so much), it's the present that you choose to let things happen. It jsut seems so god damn hard

Yes, we are our very own Darwinian Galapagos Island Experiment.

Sit back, watch us mutate and adapt to our circumstances. We will, 'cos we are the Original Survivors. Well, not the Original ones, they've all died by now (old age-related, so relax) but we are their successors.

Note how the word successors, contains the word 'success'? Clever, eh?

oh you are so clever Pat,


you must be a success!!!

Don't you find it fascinating that we could look like an ancestor who lived a very long time ago..just thorugh genetics? (I think) The human body is an AMAZING thing!!!

Yes, we are our very own Darwinian Galapagos Island Experiment.

Sit back, watch us mutate and adapt to our circumstances. We will, 'cos we are the Original Survivors. Well, not the Original ones, they've all died by now (old age-related, so relax) but we are their successors.

Note how the word successors, contains the word 'success'? Clever, eh?

paddy why did you re post that?

greasemonkey wrote:Claire,

I suggest,
the blindfolding both parties,
and getting on all fores on the carpet
and playing out your favorite animal.
No speaking aloud,only
ANIMAL SOUNDS!

Ill have to add that to my list of things to try!

Im very big on writing lists.

From reading everyones posts it seems i have some googling to do!

ME looking like one of my ancestors? whoaaaaaaaa i know im similar to my parents but wow thats a pretty cool or scarey thought.

Yip im a survivor - there is no other option for me! And that pisses me off! Grrrrrr

OH and its movie night 2nite, we are trying anythign and everything to keep our relationship ALIVE. BUT i can't rememebr the last time i watched a whole movie. I cant do it. I cant sit still for long enough and i definately cant concentrate or understand whats going on but once again ill fake it as i have done for most of my life when silly boys insist on going to the movies for dates. OH gross. I said the word "date" blugh. There is seriously something wrong with me cos it looks like im pushing away the very last person i can call "friend". Oops.

hey claire I do that always - pushing my husband away... I am lucky he is sticking with me ..through the good and the bad...

Feeling very lost and confused today, everything seems fuzzy and blurry, i have a cold as well so that has totally messed me up. Im tired. I cant concentrate at the best of times so i feel today is a huge write off. Althugh i have heaps of work to do at work as the project ive been workonig on ahs coem to an end all the final reports need writing up and reconciliations done but i cant be stuffed doung itn. im soo tired but i had a good sleep. I have family coming over for dinner 2nite and im thinking i may have to excuse myself and leave them to it while i go to bed. i wanna cry but it hurts. blurghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh blurghhhhhh blurghhhhhh bright lights are hurting me today. everythign just feels a mess. i think i look a mess today too i dont even remember getting dressed thank god i did i guess but i feel a mess. my hair needs a brush, thank god i brushed my teeth i suppose thats something but i think iforgot to eat breakfast and ive had no coffee and smoked too much alrady too. blughhhhh. crazy crazy vent here.

have you got a migrane with this? It sounds like it and would be an excuse not to have the dinner ..