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im on my knees now
my hands are bloody
my head is bowed
the tears they just dont stop

i wont beg anymore
even though ive no shame left
no, i wont ask for anything
cause all you give is pain and
im all full up

but, with what is left in me
il pick up my chin
and spit my broken teeth at you
even if im on my last breath
il curse you

you might win, but youll never take me alive....

hugs honey

How are you now?

one hour, two hours.....three
one day at a time....
thanks for asking

Big Hugs imstillstanding wish i could give you one in person.

((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))


These little flowers are for you

You make the world shine imstillstanding....... RE: Flea powder

thanks Poetry - has it arrived yet?

Hi there not yet

yeah i didn't know you had sent them, thank you again, and i mean what i said. If you go back to the post you first did about music you will see the effect your idea had on me. lol and Molly

I will definitely let you know when it arrives
cheers
I love that icon

this wont stop
this is me and i am it
this rabid cur
under my feet
tripping me at every turn
ive tried everything to beat you
ive fought fire with fire
now im burned to the bone
and nothing will cool this fever
that is killing me
killing me
i have nothing left to give you
yet you want more
i have only my breath
and you want it
my tears are gone
along with my hope
ashes, ashes
what you want the most
i wont give you


at least not yet

Not ever, imstillstanding.... not ever

Big ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
Thinking of you, take care

Poetry

don't ever give up....I look forward to your posts!

Hey ISS how are you doing?
Thinking of you

((((BIG HUGS ))))))

life is like dust in my eyes some times - as it is with all of us

Poetry - how are you? we miss you!

ISS haven't heard from ya for a while!

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I try not to as well, but it doesn't always work!

are yu writing these peoms?
cuz there amazing.

yep all me, thank you
i have read somewhere that art only comes from pain not happiness, so maybe that has something to do with it

Well, your art might come from pain, but trust me, it brings light. So there.

How can we move you closer to your own light, so its warmth bathes and protects you too? 'Cos its quite some light you cast, iss.

thank you Paddy - thats really nice of you to say - and im tryin, im tryin!!

i was actually reminded of a quote the other day from my favourite novel...
"at the end of my search i wanted to be able to say: i dont know how i could have tried harder"
- and as im still breathing, it's my responsiblity to keep trying!!

how are you today iss

i was just wondering: how do i define apathy when i just dont care?

Yep, that is a good description.

I use the word 'meh'

basically sums it up when I'm feeling like that

meh is an ok word, until recently i just swore!

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