just a groan..

Sometimes this job is fine....But i know that doesn't always happen

i need to get out of my life !!!!!!!!!

No Qwerky, You do Not need to get out of your Life.

What you HAVE to do, young lady, is now come with Five things.

All since ya didn't hand ya homework in when it was only Three things that made you smile; Tsk tsk - some folks don't take the hint, pffft.

I did warn you - three was less than five, but oh no. C'mon, you. We and others try to do our bit to give ya a hand if we can, now its your turn to show you appreciate us, buy finding and listing Five Smiles.

Coulda so easily have been just three, hahahaha. (insert Evil Laugh of Choice) So, don't Sigh like that - you had a choice, hon.

Paddy.

P.S.
And ya know I wouldn't tease ya if I didn't care, so lift that bottom lip up into a smile, no, better than that one, better than that one too - C'mon, work on it cos ya know, I reckon that if you smiled more in the Evenings, Upper Hutt mightn't need so many street lights, your smile lights up so well.

Qwerky justchecking in to see you you are.

There should be a union for people like you and me and smiley, People who are terrified by their toxic jobs and monstrous colleagues, Get this my last boss had 3 husbands commit suicide. She was a cracker. She destroyed me psychopath extraordianaire.

Qwerky for the rest of us, me paddy smily andall of us here we need your strength and hope that you will walk on because you like the song will never walk alone I wish you lived in christchurch so I could visit you.

Selfish really because I don't know a soul here to talk to or get a hug off of.

Love to you qwerky Martinexx ()

I am so confused and lost as to what to do. I know I should get out, but when things are ok, it makes me stay.

I watched cars go by again today walking to work, thinking if I had the guts to just walk out.
I know that is selfish and rude and so unfair on everyone else. But wow, I just want to go home, go to sleep and never wake up - Just be peaceful.

I would miss my darling kittens, my wonderful partner. But working is really not for me, and I have nothing else to do. sigh

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I'm afraid as that should be motivation enough to keep going. But it's not. I'm so useless.

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i need a different work life, i understand that. But it's hard to find something at the moment. I loose patience and it makes me feel worse about everything.

When I think of suicide, (as horrible as that sounds) it sort of gives me peace as there can be a way out..not a good way, not a foolproof way, but a way none the less.

I don't know how i'm going to manage another 70 years. I do know that not all would be bad, but since i have come into adulthood with negativity, that is all i see in my future.

Take care guys.

Enjoy what you have and keep safe.
I need to get away for a bit (if anyone cares..)

bye

just make sure you come back cause we will miss you xx

Hey qwerky take care of you. And maybe you should do that homework Paddy set you, yeah? Find five things worth smiling at on your timeout and then bring them back to share with us.

Be well babe.

I'm so miserable at the moment.

F**K

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I think i'm beyond help.
GAH!

depression, It hurts
Life, It's hard
Scars, they're forever

Emotions, too strong
Fear, it takes over
tears well up,
then Burst

Peace, what we want
truth, what we recieve
Patience, what we have - somehow

life sure sucks 99 per cent of the time

it sure does.

Querky there's not one of us who haven't been where you are right now.

I too wish I'd get hit by a bus, but stupid Catholic that I am (even after all the paedophilic priests) I am petrified of committing the old mortal sin of suicide.

I also have a husband and 3 beautiful dogs. Right now the dogs are better than the husband.

I don't have a job, so can't pay for my meds.


Winston Churchill said "If you are in Hell keep walking" we have to keep walking querky.

Martine

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It doesn't seem worth it..

I just don't want to do it anymore.

i HATE my life.I want to die.

I wish I could do it.. Maybe one day

Well I can guareentee that one day we will all die, and Qwerky, your day is in 2085!

Qwerky misery loves company or is it the other way round Laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone, who the frig cares everyone would think your barking if you were to start laughing now the way you and everyone else feels here.

Try this one for size. I dread (I even hate saying it) Christmas, so because Paddy is so bloody interfering and was open Christmas day on this board I swore that I would keep myself alive long enough to curse him roundly this coming Christmas.

And that, barring accidents is what I am going to do. He hates Christmas as well, so we Christmas Haters are going to form an alliance on Christmas day in Marton wherever the hell that might be and make Paddy the Grandmaster of the Christmas Haters society. You up for this?? Want to come, we can stay at a cheap and cheerful holiday park and annoy the tourists with our crying and wailing and then loosen the screws on Paddys motorised wheelchair. That must be worth a laff or two.

Whaddaya say, the air will be blue and we will learn words we never even thought of before and we can take him to hospital and piss all the nursing staff off because they will have to shift their fat arses on a Christmas day and stop eating all the mince pies.

Think about it. I am determined to see him even if its only to tell him off for stopping me.

Martine

Bring It On! Christmas in Paddyland. How could one possibly wish for more?

Heya Ms. Qwerky, you're looking particularly ravishing tonight. Your hair suits you like that, I must say. Did you KNOW your web cam was on?

Pffft. Just teasing hon and I hope, no offence taken.

How about taking your camera for a walk tomorrow and finding out what it sees? You know you are a damn fine camera artist, so use that skill and bring a smile to an old mans eyes, eh? I was out on me sticks today and the cloud formations were amazing and I regretted not having me camera with me. 'Things' are always just waiting to be noticed and maybe enjoyed or not. Thats all happiness really is, I suspect - finding and stringing enough of these little moments together that we're too busy noticing, to notice we might be feeling a bit glum.

Anyway, glum is a valid feeling - just as manical laughter. In both cases, its draggin it out to extremes that usually gets our asses bitten by that Big Black Dog. That and trying to dance the Can-Can a couple of hours back 'cos it was on me radio. Ow, qwerky, I'm sore and stupid. In fact, I'm really sore because I'm really stupid, tonight.

Doh.

Paddy.

you guys know how to put a smile on my face- Thank you