i'm sad and angry

*sigh*

i don't want to go into it. it's been a long 6 weeks.
my partner and my dad had a falling out while we were staying at my dads place. it was a stupidly small issue that became the biggest problem between two people that began as friends. so many things don't make sense to me on every level and largely i felt out of control, and like my feelings didn't matter.

i'm a bit lost about where to from here, but i'll work it out.

please don't reply. i put this here because i type stuff out and then decide to delete it. but having it on the screen in front of me helps me to make sense of it all.

i appreciate the amount of reads i have had. interesting, isn't it.

i'm in a much better place now, than i have been for a long time.

i had a falling out with my mum and then with my dad. my family all carried on 'getting on with their lives' (there is 8 of us kids in total) and it just made me feel really alone.

one of my friends had a good talk with me the other day - she was saying that as we learn along our path and grow in our own unique way we can often leave others behind.

it made me realise that i was expecting my parents to sort out their issues and move on from their past, but instead they were projecting past hurts on to me and my partner.

i've since become a bit more forgiving, but my partner isn't and that still leaves me in the middle a bit. but at least he will let me get on with the relationships i need for me, and be there for me when i get home <3