Dear World

Dear World,

I’ve been hiding away a wee bit lately and I won’t say that ‘S’ word, cos it felt like what I needed to do, ya know?

Fortuitously, I seem to be, as athletes say, getting my second wind (baked beans ‘ll do that for ya!).

I kinda felt all ‘Paddy’d Out’ ya know and tis very hard to offer profound wisdom when one knows that one should be ‘doing’ a lot more except, ya can’t be arsed too, ya know?

As Admin I wandered backwards and forwards here, attending to what I could best as I could but as moi, it all got a bit much, sigh.

Not a half day went by when I wasn’t ‘here’ as an unsigned in Guest but I think me brain needed that break from the self-imposed expectation that somewhere or other, I had always had answers to other folks conundra (plural for conundrum, I’ve just decided.). Cos sadly, I don’t ‘always’ and for a wee while, I was hard put to sort me own ones out.

I still kinda enjoyed the fresh air and nature and stuff, but it wasn’t real exciting, ya know? I’d not written anything for my own pleasure or satisfaction or needs, in weeks. I wasn’t even making up on the fly, filthy verses to songs heard at random on the radio. That shoulda alerted me all wasn’t well, pffft.

So, whats changed? Well, me mate Yddap suggested I’d wallowed long enough this time around, ya know. Oh, and I discovered in me medicine cupboard, a hell of a lot more of my anti-mad pills than I shoulda had left, if they’d been taken as prescribed each morning. Hmmmmm. I thought I was taking them and sometimes I musta done but I think I’m one of those folk for whom life really is better on them than not, ya know?

A few days without them, and it feels like its weeks after resuming them to be back up to where I know I can be. Sure, life ain’t perfect on the anti-mads, but life ain’t ever perfect, is it? No Paddy, it isn’t, is it!

Hmmmm. I are back.

Paddy.

Welcome back good Sir. Long may this bounce-back last.

Welcome back Paddy, You have beeb sorely missed.

Hi Paddy good to see you back and to hear that you are experiencing your 'second wind' as it were. Take special care of you and TBT won't you?!

Welcome back good on you for looking after yourself if thats what you need to do then do it.

Thanks for your understanding and encouragement.
I'm not used to all this sensitive new age guy stuff yet, so it takes its toll, pffft.

Paddy.

Hugs from the teddy bears anyway, teddies love us no matter how we are feeling (and they don't snore)......

Well I had wondered what that smell was my old friend!

Perhaps the beans without the cheese next time.

I am glad all is well mate ....