I don't know if I can do this much longer

This lack of sleep. The amount of pain I'm in. My whole back aches, down my right shoulder, across my lower stomach, up the left side of ribs, down the right side of neck. I can't take much more of this!! Docs that tell ya not to take any pain killers or nothing, have they every been in this much pain?? Yes I realise that by taking them and working I risk a small possibility of doing more damage, but come on, I have to spend 40+ hours a week constantly bending and lifting and stretching up and reaching down and leaning over things, do you think I enjoy doing all that in constant bloody pain?? Even if I've been sitting down for a short amount of time, to then stand up causes pain all down my legs and more pain in my back. The pain is keeping me awake most nights this week, the times I do lie down in bed and try get some sleep the crash replays in my head, I can feel the lose of control, I can hear the screech of the tyres, I can feel the impact of the car and the pole, I can hear the impact. I have a small feeling that the crash has affected me a hell of a lot more than I thought it had.

Well I guess there is one good thing about the lack of sleep. I've nearly finished my daffodil costume.

Aww hugs LC, why if you are in that much pain are you even working??. Sounds to me that you are experiencing delayed shock from the crash, it will go. I remember a few years ago when some young kids who had stolen a car came screaming down my street, lost control of the car and came crashing through my bedroom window At the time it did freaked me, but it wasn't until days later, when I walked back into that room and saw all the damage, (my home all boarded up, huge bay window totally mangled, duchess destroyed, and my bed, the bed I was in at the time, broken in half), that I finally fell apart, how the hell did we live though it. I experienced all that you are, relived every bit of the nightmare, each night. It took me a few weeks to bounce back, but for me what I did was each time the fear arrived, I allowed myself to feel it for maybe 10minutes and then turned it around to how lucky I was. Your mind can be your best freind, or your worst enemy, turn it around hun and you will see lots of positive stuff come out of this experience. Your doing great, keep it up.

I don't want anymore shock, am over it all. I'm still working because I don't have any other option really, I need to pay the bills and eat still. I'm in a shitty mood at work today, had an hours sleep (if ya could call it that) early this morning. Go to this physio/osteopath again on Tuesday, don't think I can keep affording that though and didn't really seem to do anything last time. If it doesn't improve soon think am gonna have to go back and see doc, can't keep going on, it's wearing me down. That must of been scary as anything to experience Pam

True hun, it twas, but its how we deal with it that counts. You are here, you are well and you can be grateful, sweet, or you can go, oh why did this happen to me. It did, it was very frightening for you, but you are going to be ok, once you heal. Turn this around and say oh how lucky am i, life is sweet, I am here for a reason. Hope you feel better soon.

I know how lucky I am, I know I'm here for a reason and all that. I could cope with it just fine if I didn't have the bloody pain. Finished up early at work today, nearly been in tears all day with the pain.

ouchhh, I can almost feel your pain. Hope it all gets better soon.

Same here.

I don't know what I've done to be given this much pain

how are you today lc, i've been thinking of you lots lately