Giving in to the Firewater-a freestlye poem based on my now

I thought I had you beat,I always do
Five days in,then SLAM
You hit me AGAIN,when I was weak,and I gave in to your amber solitude,AGAIN
Temporary.
Tears dont taste as good when my eyes are closed.
And today I helped you take away the only people left who beleived.
I could recover
You loved that didnt you?Got me to yourself
Take my hopes,they're useless now
replace them with your cold inviting smile.
I can feel you in me,eating away at what I need
coursing my veins,and drowning my brain.
So go on,take a picture,might aswell,you've taken everything else
And now
My hand is trembling for you
and my lip trembles as i think of what you've already taken from me.
I thought you had me beat,I think you do
Is it worth one last shot?
Or shot?
I dont know,but wake me up tomorrow and i'll deal with you then.
You fucken germ,under my skin thats grey and pale
Leave me,get out.PLEASE?
PLEASE,PLEASE,PL.....
And now,for my closing act,watch as I take this bottle and make it disappear

I want to be sober.I want to live
I just dont know how

You're nearly there my friend and will be one day soon
The call is heard by your heart and action will hit in tune
I hope along with you and feel your doom
The winds are changing my friend, it's the bottles high noon

((((((HUGS)))))) may strength fill you and resolve take you into a new world where you hold the cards and play them as you wish to.