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Hi Woppow, Are you seeing your Dr at all. I do hope you're soon feeling a lot better. I know you've been missing your friend and feeling really upset that you couldn't do more for her - you're allowed to have someone 'walk alongside you' for a while as you adjust to being without your friend. It's not so long that she's been gone, is it. Please consider getting in touch with a counsellor or someone who can assist you. We need you here, as part of our family. Your course is coming up soon too.
BIG hugs for you ....... Daze

hang-in here Woppo
everything is on the move.
patience!

Hi Wop

I agree with Daze it isn't long ago that you lost your friend...... grief and loss is such a hard place to move from. I also advise seeking some professional help you need to wop.... pick up the ph hun and tell them you need help. 'them' Paddy has a list of contacts on message board. My heart goes out to you woppow to be so young and have to suffer is not fair. You should be out enjoying the world.... Seek help so you can..... life can be wonderful - you deserve the very best wop. take special care.

Thanks all for caring. I no longer do (where myself is the worry)

I couldn't even go out to get tea from the food court last night. I ran out of Northlands mall crying. The silliest thing there was only a hand full of people about - mostly families who don't normally freak me out its mostly youth that scares me, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

I kinda got sent home from work. i was meant to get home at 6am, but they said go home at 1am, only three hours into my shift. The guy in charge said i was in no fit state to be working.
I cant even work.

Before my older brother -19/20yr came in to my room and told me he feels worthless. - he been out in town. I know my ugly own self hate is rubbing off on him. - Yet another person better off without me.
See even more self hate. even in a weird way my self harm is also rubbing off on him. As he said he even pulled the bikes on his bike soo he fliped so he could feel pain.

STOP THE WORLD I WANT TO GET OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

((((HUGS)))))

Hey you wop!!

Don't go blamining yourself for others feelings.

You need to get yourself on the mend before others (and you are still not to blame).

It was good that you got sent home from work, time to work things out for yourself.

The previous posts are right. It hasn't been that long ago that your friend 'did the deed' but you can't blame yourself for that either.

There is only one hand that twists the final blow, and it is not and was not yours.

Woppow (Lisa?) you are young and have the world at your feet. Somewhere inside you is a perfect human being just trying to get out. It is just that grief and depression are stopping it.

Take one day at a time, have no expectations of the day and I am sure you will be pleasently surprised. Good things do come!!

You go girl!!

((((((((((( arohanui hugs )))))))))) I left a message for you early hours on chat, when you too where online ...... I hope you saw.

I wish i could say more..... so many members care about you... re-read the replies..... I hope you find some comfort and take up advice that has been posted.

when we love another
there is a tendancy
to take-on
the others-feelings.

Empathy is a good thing,
as it makes the load-lighter
for the friend were carrying,
and this action gives us an appreciation of our own self-worth
from doing so.
Having something of a purpose for living
makes life Livable,
especially when you have a friend or a Partner.

It works well if Both Friends are able
to see themselves in the other;No-one looses-out,
its a Two-Way thing,No-one goes it alone
or falls by the wayside
into the dark canyon of our unexplored-minds
where Souls are created,
from scratch.
.

But when you loose your Friend
your Lifes partner
its the pits.

We are thrown into the Darkness of our Minds without warning,
sometimes becomming victimised by our very-own repressed feelings
and un-ventilated emotions,
emotions we have stuffed down there,
in the hope of forgetting them.

Learning from these experiences of being struck-down
seems the only sensible thing to do with such un-welcome trageties,
as going-under seems to empower the darkness
and postpone our growing
far into the future.

Taking a healthy-attitude towards our illnesses and grief,
as well as having an interest in Natures Grieving Process
is IMPORTANT.

Grief has left its footprints in the sand which Others have walked upon.
These others who have hurt exactly
or more than the way we do,
can be intrumental in getting us in motion again,
out of the stuckness in darkness and back moving towards the light of day
where we were,
before the ground opened
beneath us!
Learn from Others experiences
others writings in book-form or googling the internet!
There is much to learn
even while you think you dont need it
others about you May need You!

Welcome. This is an amazing, lot of very wise, careing people. Hope we can be of some help. Sometimes, what is said, is not always what we want to hear, but we need to listen. Take care

LMAO GM. I love the pic, but why is it in *this* thread?

no buts...
I like it here
and it is funny.
When we become too serious
we forget that laughter
is the best
medicine!

hey Wop? how ya been?

and yes laughter is the best medicine.

For example, when my two boys get 'down' (and they are only 7 & 9) I tickle them.

Or when I get angry with them, or they are angry with me - I tickle them.

At first they might say DON'T but all of a sudden they burst out into uncontrollable laughter - they can't help it at all!!!

It disapates the bad moods from everyone.

When was the last time we were all tickled - when did we all laugh uncontrollably (without the assistance of drugs or alcohol).

When was that moment in time and can we recreate it?

mmmm,
such a provocating piece of writing My Life!

Non-threatening and thought provking in a Way.

It shows us,we hold LIFE-DOWN
which requires our Bodies Muscular System
to achieve this and create successfullness,
even so negative
a Hit
in anyones sense!

By giving energy to ones physical posture,
we can control,
or release our Life
to run Free again.

Mind is infact
within OUR Body; its only the Thoughts
that surround our head.

Hi all.

Thanks for posting I have just got home for been in emergency respite for 3 nights. Thats why I havent been online.
- It was eventful. Including two cop call out to the respite flat. One youth been kicked out for showing me gay porn and ((trying to find a way to say this)) Kinda making moves on me. He liked cornered me and was hugging me, started kissing. - It brought back alot of memories about my exbf. And this was at 4am. So the staff was asleep in the office. and I felt like a dick coz it was my fault he started to come on to me. I am just such a little hoe.
Now I have until tea time to decide If I want to live or die. Bcoz my mum is coming home at tea time. and then I wont get another chance to try anything until maybe the weekend.
So as you can tell by my last comment things are alot worse then what they were before I went in to emergency Respite. But then on a good side I have my doggie lying here next to me on my bed. Looking at me as if to say I would miss you if you died kinda thing.

I just really dont want ANOTHER faulted attempted. or cops showing up at my door. coz someone rang them coz they were worried about me. or being taken to PES/PETT/CATT. I really just want to hire a hit man. or get a gun but then I wouldnt just take myself out. Or a knife, go around waving it - suicide by cop. Or end up like my old mate Maire Davis (the 15yr in chch that got raped and killed and dumped in the river) sorry I am being a hater. and I should stop talking like that. sorry all. haha. Now even my dog has had enough of me and has walked out of my room. HAHA!!!!!!!!!!!! F-R-E-A-K Knowing me I wouldnt act on any of them. Just lie here dog less and drowning in my own self hate and emptiness.

Just for the record Mylife my real name is Elizabeth. But no-one calls me that its either Lizzie or Wop.

Hey there Wop

Are you up to coming to the chat room? I will go there now, wait for you....

lizzie,

have you ventured into writing stories
as a means of income?
You have heaps of energy that could go out into the world
worked through the right channels.
gm

to right gm

hey wop, how ya going now?

wop???? how are you coping today? alright ?

woppow, how are you going now?

Hey,

I ahven't heard for wop for a while. The last I heard she was back in hospital so that may be why we have not seen her round.