Life is getting me down

My life is sometimes embarassing.Im a useless housewife,a sub standard mother,Im fat and wont do anything about it,I smoke,Im broke as fuck,My back is fucked and I cant even afford to do anything about it.I have fuck all friends,I live further away from my family than Id like.Im lazy,Im ugly,Im stupid.No matter how hard I try I fail in everything I do

I dont have the strnegth to give up smoking,I dont have the money to continue smoking,I cant afford to move to a bigger house that we really need and Im not a nice person.My husband and children deserve better.
I throw up after eating but I know its wrong,if I thought it was ok I wouldnt make sure my children werent around or only do it while my husband isnt home

There is no hope for me.I have failed at life

Oh Lifey, Big hugs for you! ....... Daze

Aw hugs lifey hun. You may think all those things, but you have still brought 2 beautiful girls into the world, and from what I've seen your not fat or ugly.

I dont know what else to say as I don't know you, but from chatting to you on here I think your lovely, and strong to deal with all the things that you have going on in your life. You also make it clear that you adore your girls and hubby. Hugs hun, Im thinking of you xoxox

Lifey you haven't failed at life. You just have a lot going on at the moment. I bet your husband and your baby girls love you to bits. It's hard being everything for everybody when you are so messed up inside and the pressure can really get to you can't it.

I hope today is a better day for you. Take care. ((((big hugs)))

Joanne

Feeling a tad better thanks guys. I think Im just adjusting to my higher dosage of meds

sounds like failure to me. that's what makes me believe that its not true. and i am sure that you don't believe this to be true also lifeshouldbegreat