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When the answer to "why me" is "why not you?" No replies please.

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Post by Anita Sat May 15, 2010 4:31 am

I wish there was a frigging answer to the why question. I wish I believed in God so that I could have an answer that was true for me, even if it would be an answer that I raged against. I fucking HATE not knowing.

I hate that not knowing causes me to doubt myself more. I hate that not knowing leads my mind in fucking circles that don't even look like circles until I'm so tight up against the middle that I can't even speak and the only way to get out is to shout "FUUUUUUCK" and even then I'm not out because now I'm in and it takes minutes and hours and days and weeks and months of deliberate fucking climbing to get anywhere that doesn't press in from all fucking directions.

I'm fucking sick of it. I want to know why.
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