Damn it all!!!!

What the hell is wrong with me?? Why does the accident keep replaying?? IT WASN'T EVEN THAT BAD!!!! GET OVER IT LISA!!!! Fuck it, I am over everything. How the hell am I meant to be coping with work and living on top of depression and PTSD?? Is it even possible?? Sure doesn't feel like it. I don't like feeling like this.

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Hon, it obviously WAS that bad.

Or, it wouldn't still be biting you like this.

Which means, you can ask for help to work past this point. Remember how damn good it felt to have survived? You deserve that feeling back and you can get it

I hope you don't mind me replying, Lisa - you did say replies were not necessary, not, not wanted. But now I've pointed out the technicality, you might want to go back and edit your original post?

Pat.

Ok, sorry for wording it wrongly.

I can't ask for help, I don't want help, I don't need help. I should be able to get through this myself like any other time. It wasn't bad, I came out basically unharmed, the car drove of afterwards like nothing happened so it wasn't bad.

It must have jolted something inside you little daffodil. Kind of like the last straw and feelings came tumbling out. You do deserve help and need it too if you feel this badly.

Don't deserve the help. What have I done to help other people to deserve help myself??

Now can we please STOP replying?? I changed the wording that I worded wrongly.