How do you

Get over that immense loneliness when you can't find the energy or inspiration to talk to anyone or go anywhere. When you feel like everyone is judging you, and that you simply can't be enough for others?

I dont , lonely girl------
I feel the same ---just NOTHING inside me, like hollow, and my emotions are just numb or sad---I feel no joy, happiness, or even anger??.
This is terrible.

its such a relief to feel angry at someone/thing, you realise that you can still feel things. Sometimes depression feels like an old familiar blanket that i wrap around myself before i realise it will suffocate me. Do you girls feel like that too?

My only relief is online games, ludo, scrabble, poker you name it. Keeps my brain busy until I have to admit I'm alone

hmmm, I can relate to that nzgirl, I play lots of webboggle to keep me distracted.

Yeah a friend just showed me this, nice and short for my brain to comprehend, geez I have trouble reading the fourm. Mindless yet funny and humour is good. http://xkcd.com/

Well, I had three pretty good days in a row. Nice surprise. Then I woke up this morning. And now I feel like crap again. Damn I hate this cycle. Good, bad, Good, Bad. Yeah I know, Should be damn grateful for the good days, but Im sick of all the bad ones.

hmm, guess I am too early for everyone this morning

Hi, I'm here today for a short while!.
I cant believe that I run the same awful pattern as you???, a couple of OK days and then WHAM , wake up and stay CRAP all day!, I was thinking it could be hormonal???

Morning ladies,

One of those days, huh? Add me to the list of 'I don't wanna play' today, could you?

I can sort of deal with having a brain like mine, and I can sort of deal with a broken back blah blah blah, but this mix 'n match stuff where they both give grief on the same day - the novelties wearing off.

Roll on midnight, when Friday will be gone. Take care, aye.

What is the point in this damn life anyway, is there a reason?

What's there worth living for when you can never find the one thing you want most - love, unconditional love.

Why do we fight this, day after day, then as soon as we have a few "good" days it comes and bites us on the butt anyway.

I relate to the lonely numbness. It is like a blanket that covers me and I feel numb, don't feel anything.

If I am feeling that way espically during the long nights I sometimes cuddle up to a soft toy I have. Pretty lame for a 27 y.o male I know.

I feel your pain Lonely. I often wonder what the worth of living is espically when love is so rare and conditional.

I would love unconditional love, someone who does not judge and acepts me as me.

I often wonder why I bother struggleing, it would be easier just to give up.

what makes us keep going I wonder? What one earth makes us want to keep feeling the pain?

Do we think one day it will just disappear for good?

Do we think one day we will be good enough?

My friends after my last relapse and the stuff that I ahd to deal with afterwards told me they knew I would get through it cos
- I am strong
- I have reslience
- I have survived before

I guess a lot of us surive just cos it what we do

Hi lonely girl, I understand your feelings and thoughts - don't answer this question if you don't want to.

Have you had long term counselling? Sometimes it takes a while to work through all the trauma, upset feelings etc. Taking life 'one day at a time' is important for me - if I break things down into little bits I get through quite a lot. Have you had any fun lately? We're all different, living in different circumstances - It's great to have the support on here. I do wish we could meet up and have coffee and a chat. Hope you have a better day tomorrow. A hug from me to you!

Hi Daze,

No, I haven't had long term counselling. I had a brief stint of counselling when I was first diagnosed, but I didn't gel with the counseller - didn't trust her since she told me stuff about someone else that I didn't believe she should have told me.

have thought about it on the odd occassion, but then I think how do you find one you can trust, and that can be expensive. And I just don't have the money for that.

I've had a few relatively good days lately, but just hit a wall today. Been a bit under the weather with a throat infection and cough for the last few days so havent been to the gym for a few days either.

Cheers for the hug

Hi Lonely girl, I know it's sometimes a bit difficult to find someone you trust - Do you have a women's centre near you? They sometimes have free counselling - they're funded for it. I've had some great people along the way and one or two who weren't so good. No doubt your throat infection could be pulling you down at the mo. I need to go to bed now.

Getting a counsellor that you feel comfortable with is vital. Keeping ourselves physically well helps too. (Says the insomniac!) Take care of yourself.

Sometimes, like this evening I just don't know why I bother with the battle. No wonder I hate roller coasters, my life is one

Im outa here for now. Go and blob in front of the telly and try not to just sit and cry. I hate this.

I hope you are ok lonely girl. Be gentle with yourself. Take care.