not good.

I did have a councilor, but she wasn't very good at all so I stopped- But I made her believe i was ok and I persuaded myself as well somehow.

But it's all just stupid now.
My bf doesn't understand either when he should be the one who understands the most.
He just says that I was fine before, and he tells me to stop being silly.

Why do I care?

Because I just do, you are my friend and I care because of it.

Sorry Qwerky, but that is the way it is at the moment!

Qwerky, I don't know the words to use to make your pain go away.
Life with depression is really bumpy, and believe it or not, there will be a tomorrow that is better.

Look after you, spoil yourself, eat chocolate, take a bubble bath, do something just for you, and know there are people out there that do care, and do understand.

In my heart of hearts, it's just not fair for anyone to have to go through this.

It ruins peoples lives, ruins relationships.
It's just a horrible thing to have, it truly is.

Life is just to short to have to worry about any of this, yet we all live with it daily.

Of course its not fair. But its not fair that people get cancer. Its not fair that people get born into third world countries. Its not fair that some people are disabled.

We are dealt the hand we are dealt. But the good thing about our condition, some times we have the power to do something about it.

k

I know it probably seems hopeless today qwerky, and it may even seem hopeless again tomorrow. But one day it will seem a little bit better, and then a whole lot better, and one day, you will forget you even felt like this at all. I promise.

The worse thing about our lives, is our own brain seems to work against us, I often think it would be great to be a robot, and be able to get a brain overhaul, when I needed one.

What I've really come to notice about myself and depression, is that if I have one bad day, it feels like I've been miserable and depressed forever. Conversely, if I have one good day, I can see life is good and I wonder what the hell yesterday was about.

Always remember "This too will pass"

hey qwerky - hope you are 'better' today -

How can people be so happy with life and others not so much.
I honestly have a fantastic life, I just don’t understand why I am like this- I shouldn’t be, but because I am it makes me so much more sad.

It’s just not fair and I know people have to ‘deal’ with it, as it is the only way we can get through it. But I seriously hate it. I hate it with a passion!

I want to be happy, I want to not have to worry about thinking bad thoughts, to not see the pain in the eyes of people I love. It breaks my heart. 
But I do know that if I did anything horrible the pain in their hearts wouldn’t go away. I just hate being like this because it feels like I won’t change any time soon.

I want to grow up, I want this ‘chapter’ of Lizzie to pass. I want there to be a happier chapter, but right now I seriously don’t see anything like that in the future.

I’m not suicidal- just so you know. I’m just sad that I don’t see a brighter future for myself.
I have no idea what will be out there, but i’m afraid all I’ll do is hurt the people I love and continue hurting them.

I know that since I'm thinking about it- It's almost determined to come true (eg, you think about not getting stressed but you get stressed even more)

aww qwerky,

it is difficult innut?

Hello qwerky ..... What I wonder is: Has the type of depression you have been classified? When do you see your Dr again - worth checking out with him/her what they think and if necessary sending you off to someone else. Another med may be better for you - that's where specialist knowlege may be needed. I believe a mixture of meds and therapy/counselling is beneficial. A few sessions on stress management may help too. There is a future for you but depression 'clouds' the ability to imagine it. You're young - could be all kinds of adventures for you down the track! ...... Daze

BLA!!!!!!!!!
Just a vent- Like usual with me.

what is the point???
*sigh*

This world is dangerous, humans are dangerous.
The people in the world are up there own buts and don't realise what they have done to this planet.
It's just not worth it, not at all anymore.

More people in the world, the worse off this world is going to become. If some people are never going to be happy with life, seriously, what is the point carrying on?
Because people care? God, all people should do is look out for themselves because in the end we are all just selfish human beings!



Life is just s**t.