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Post by greasemonkey Wed May 13, 2009 8:48 am

Gidday,
Im back after a short break,
whilst Life reveal to me what its all about,
after some very moving moments within dreams and meditations that which allows me
to return different than before.
Sure,
I were a bit far-out before,
but now I am right back inside my body, deeper than I have ever been before and not suffering depression.
I am aware at a depth never before experienced by myself,in a new old-place somewhere I only intuitively new existed,somewhere close to Birth.

Life an Death are knitted so closely together,that most people miss the moment of rebirth when near death experiences visit them,or they visit a near death experience.Depression is like premature death and in the olden days,were known as The dark Night of the Soul.They called it that as those that survived the harrowing experience without drugs in those days,usually came through the experience with self-knowledge,soul-knowledge for want of a less religious world.

Any how,my purpose is to write of My Life here,and in particular the persuit of its meaning as well as to crack the mystery that became me,purely by accident!This I share with you all,as I feel your pain as well as hear your prayers for healing and understanding,so that you may return to your Families intact,as I have done.

I write from Australia as this is where life has placed me at present,amonst a small family of two children,13 and 10yrs,a boyngirl respectively and their Mother.Primarilly Im writing to say I am well-now, having travelled to the depth of Depression over a period of 8yrs,whilst on(an off)Drugs My Dr prescribed me,and whilst I also explored myself by use of meditation.This twin-fold approach to self healing I did,I did so that if I were to Die a death myself I would go out fully responsible as an adult,knowing that I had served my children the best i could,and were not looking for an easyway-out!

There's a meditation thread here at TBBD message bd, for those that need an explanation of what meditation is, apart from the religiousness that sometimes comes along with-it, from Teachers within a Group or Cult context

Im nothing of the Sort;I started out fully ignorant at age 14yrs(when I first realised that Life were not what I thought it was about)and continued on from there,trying to get my needs met,where ever I could.I had the ordinary unspectacular life as a child,the third of three,which only became unusual upon the Death of My Father,when I were 27yrs of age. This were unusual as it showed me I knew about impending-death (which I thought were my own death) in my teens,namely 14yrs..

So what happened at the auspicious age of 14 then?
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Post by Guest Wed May 13, 2009 9:16 am

Welcome back GM

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Post by Guest Wed May 13, 2009 9:41 am

good to see you back gm

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Post by ZenMonsta Wed May 13, 2009 5:16 pm

Lovely to have you back friend!

Hugs to you!
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Post by greasemonkey Thu May 14, 2009 12:46 am

wow!
thank you guys,its so good to know we're amonst friends here ehh!
This here World of Wisdom is comming knockin loudly on my door and
I starting to go out,in amonst the seeking peoples (spirirtualists) in this here community i live.
Normally I shy away from such groupings,prefering to notice from afar what people are upto,and how well they're faring from the last time I looked into the matters of evolution.There is alot happening out there around us;keep your eyes peeled ehh!People are breaking out in all sorts of deciplines,arts drama music;why just this morning i came accross(on the net)silvio gazuez from argentina,diving a fine guitar.I must tell my wife!

Are you all in motion under the weight of your individual problems?
Getting stuck has become something of an interest for me as I learn so much from the short time Im there,in Pain!

I hope we all continue to share what we have found that has helped us unstick our stuck enroute nirvana,which so happens to be so close we infact overlook the simplicity of it.What with all the methods we use to keep ourselves occupied,tv,books etc as well as listening to music (and some bloody great stuff) we dont get to experience the sublime in simplicity!

Has the penny dropped?
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Post by Guerrilla Roach Thu May 14, 2009 4:35 am

Fantastic to have ya back GM Smile, I'm so pleased about your recent enlightenment. The good energy is on the move and gathering its momentum. You have shone the light internally and grown as a result. This is truly awesome news. I celebrate your achievement with you and continue to hope for its progression in others. You found love. Where? Inside, where it has always been. You found peace in the same place too. And indeed all you really need lies there. It is simple as you say and so often ignored or over looked. But like most things, the simplest solution, often seems to be the hardest to obtain. Unstuck, YES! That is it exactly. No longer restrained by the conventions of others, or yourself. Free. Totally free. Your cup now flows over. Smile
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Post by Guest Thu May 14, 2009 4:38 am

Yeah baby! - good on you GM!!

I think the penny takes a while to drop for some of us!

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Post by greasemonkey Thu May 14, 2009 6:48 am

aha! you both insightfull!
cheers.
There is heaps happening about me at Present,and i must say,about my partner.
She has been accousted by a phantom ciggie pkt dumper,who dumps his used pkts of wet dipped used ciggies infront of Our letterbox.She has been watching the last week,hidden in the bushes trying to spot the culprit without success,untill today.
Last week the bloke,even moved a previously dumped pkt up off the ground to a gate post closer to the house from the Letterbox,Where We Could See IT!...queer,or weired?
She were becomming increasingly alarmed,so we have been keeing watch,as the pkts increase on the ground,one ever day with the odd break of nothing on one day,every 4-5 days....Well,it turnes out to be a Man,(she has seen Him twice)who is old and frail with a stooped gait,and also a YOUNG man who wears earphones,and has an erect gait but who wears the same clothes(identical)as the Old Bloke who stumbles along!.....weird ehh.Now we know,we can prepare ourselves to follow this strange phenonema further,maybe see which house He comes and Goes out of each day,and what he is upto,choosing only our Home to dump His ciggie Pkts!
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Post by Guerrilla Roach Thu May 14, 2009 9:03 pm

Some form of cigarette related symbolic ritual, or..., man with very specific rubbish dumping requirements? Too many options really Smile lol! One things for sure GM, sounds like a bit of a mystery you got on your hands.


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Post by Guest Fri May 15, 2009 12:26 am

Razz Razz Razz Razz Razz Razz hilarious!

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Post by greasemonkey Fri May 15, 2009 3:57 am

OK!
My wife spots Him again today,dressed the same,but this time He stares rt into our home,she n I hidden behind the kitchen sink,bobbed down Like.He dosnt flick His Ciggie pkt but continues past the house dn the Street.lol,I follow him,many yards behind and He walks two blocks and then returns back on himself;I accross the rd awaiting in the bus stop,sitting awaiting the Bus.
Soo, again I follow Him,and decide to fast-track in front of him so i can get a picture of the Drop,from a Hill accross the road from our Home.I go inland through the bushes to the Hill-top.
There he comes,dn the street but turns just before our house into the neighbouring street,and i race off on aup the street from whense He came in the first place hoping to catch him comming face towards me,in the back street he had taken,for some reason,so i can get His pic.
This came about,about 50yrds between us, and he quickly turned dn an alley-way,
and walked thro to the Neighboring Street
OUR STREET,
to dissappear into a upperclass residence...not far up the road where we live!
I have a photo of his House!
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Post by Guerrilla Roach Fri May 15, 2009 4:28 am

The mystery deepens. Dum de dum dummmmmmm. Who is the mysterious character leaving damp cigarettes at the residence of Mr G Monkey, and why do they feel compelled to do it? Strange happenings from across the ditch have Mr G Monkey running around like Magnum PI. Tune in next week to get your next grand installment of, Damp Gifts For You; aka, neo Agatha Christie's Grease Monkey, The Great Ciggie Puzzle. lol! scratch scratch lol!
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Post by Guest Fri May 15, 2009 6:43 am

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA..

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Post by greasemonkey Sat May 16, 2009 8:02 am

Things have changed again with the Ciggie Pkt dropper.

This morning my partner meet him enroute home from the local elections voting
He on a Back-street,head down,blinkers on,she said.
When they got close together,she stopped in front of Him and,"good morning Sir!"
He hesitated,stopped and came out of His deep walking method
and acknowledge Her and our daughter infront of Him.

Today,no pkt
were dropped (I just looked).

He seems of an 'interesting type,maybe Sth American,darkish skin' She says.
I am yet to meet the dark sinned american
with slieght of hand abilities.lol

I have been dizzy in the head today!Alot.
We went into town shopping,i could hardly participate and chose to stay out of the action,attending to my own well being...and trying to stay apart from entering my mind,when its spinning,or about to spin.
It seems to spin when ppl are about,or close to Me...

Yesterday I had two maybe three glasses of Wine.
I mayhave poisoned myself.

Last night were so cold and i were too heady from illeffects of wine that I became irritable and couldnt sleep.
Today has been a downday of Lower energies, one "out of the Blue".

Things have been going so great since i threw the Anti-depressants away!

Its been 13 days since the miraculous event where i saw I didnt need the dope
and i decided to go it alone.I had been contemplating it,on and off for months,and the Drs always freak-out!
The last two months have been so revealling to Me,
i feel that i have unlocked
a the secrete in Me.

More about the past two months later.
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Post by greasemonkey Sun May 17, 2009 1:23 am

lol, This morning,
My partners says,"the little buggar has dropped another packet!"
We laugh.

This morning I am in the clear again,having been weak,an suffering dizzyness a couple of days.Life is continuing to reveal solutions to difficalies and the New-Way(ancient-way)of Being to Me.
(More about BEING and NOT-being later)

Its great
having a supportive partner that one can talk with.

That encompasses you Three,ZenM,GR and MYLIFE....
My wife-n-I have our TOGETHER-TIMES first thing in the morning,when she awakens me with a cuppa.Having a together time is like a Heart2Heart which everyone should have if theyre in Relationship,and want to go the distance.lol

To go out in the world One requires to be together with themselves and comming back to meet the partner is precious.If One didnt make it happen the Night before,the early hours makes it easier to arrive HOME as Ones guards(if existant)are non-existant,or vapour thin in existance.

Love is always good
dont you reckon?

....ZenM,
how is it going?
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Post by claire_sky Mon May 18, 2009 4:24 am

Good to see you back here Greasemonkey have missed your posts lately. You are right re" Change is the only constant, and its soomethign ive always held onto "the only permanent thing in life is change" Perhaps i took the meaning too far as i have been known to move around a hell of a lot and the fact ive never held a job down for more then a year!

Your ciggy pkt dropping man might be a cousin of the Ciggy packet theif that seems to follow me around!! I can never find my smokes when i want 1 which is probably a good thing! I must say that "heart2hearts" is a new thing for me as i have never been good with communication hence the many many failed relationships i have had but currently my partner and I have been talking freely and openly and it is not only bringing us closer together but it is also giving me strength as an individual something i havnt had in a while as ive always hidden behind him!
Anyhow welcome back look forward to more posts from you!

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Post by greasemonkey Mon May 18, 2009 5:48 am

[quote="claire_sky"]Good to see you back here Greasemonkey have missed your posts lately. You are right re" Change is the only constant, and its soomethign ive always held onto "the only permanent thing in life is change" Perhaps i took the meaning too far as i have been known to move around a hell of a lot and the fact ive never held a job down for more then a year! Dear Claire....perhaps you 'took it at one level' and failed to look inside for the deeper meaning of the same saying.
lol,BUT I see you now understand,
what with the Heart2Hearts you're having TODAY with your lover,
Now that you have chosen to stay put and change as well!

We see
sooner than later,
that CHANGE can occur inside of us
and this allows us to remain in our SAME LOCATION!
ie, when we know ourselves alittle better,
we realise that by changing that which we think we are,
we can stay in the same relationship.


Congratulations in finding the right Partner for you!
does he smoke?
Lolol
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Post by Guest Mon May 18, 2009 5:54 am

Change is a funny thing, esp when you realise it is you that needs to change and not everyone else all of the time.

I am lucky that my partner is very strong. We aren't going to change. Most others would have flipped out and thrown me out by now.

But not him. No sirie.

I am sure your partner will be the same Claire

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Post by _wizza_ Mon May 18, 2009 6:19 am

cheers welcome back GM- i enjoy reading your posts and am looking forward to hearing more about this phantom ciggi packet dropper Razz
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Post by greasemonkey Tue May 19, 2009 2:20 am

lol,
Wizza.....
there are currently 6 pkts laying at the letterbox.
From here,I can see that My partner has moved Her small seat
closer to within being seen by the Phantom.
I think she is getting Bolder by the day!

She Smokes too
and may have a friend in the not too distant future
from where im seeing it all unfolding.
At this Point
there is nothing sinister about the charade,
Maybe the bloke is lonely;yesterday I thought,
"Maybe His wife had died and He is seeking the answer to his Prayers!"

Today,I am well,bouyant and full of LIFE to bursting point.
Excuse me whilst i go chase the Wife!lol
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Post by greasemonkey Tue May 19, 2009 2:27 am

I've always said,
"partnership(relationships)are the fastest Road to Enlightenment.

Ultimately,
we are all One-Being;love and the act of falling in love
shows us a glimpse of this very sought after
State of Conciousness.

When one is down,go for a walk to the local park,with shades-on
and watch from a distance
the Lovers in the park!

The mind cant help
but change when love is near!
Love outstares the evil eye!
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Post by greasemonkey Tue May 19, 2009 4:51 am

So what happened at the auspicious age of 14 then?
further to post 1.

it were 14 or 15,maybe sixteen years of age when the Principal and the visiting Vocational guidance Officer Bailed me UP in their office,and I were cornered,and made to be serious!
"What are you going to do when you leave school?"
Feeling trapped,I felt the energy within had no-where to escape,and having left it too long to escape I were forced into a small place within,where the only way up was OUT!
I blerted-out,
"I didnt have to have a Vocation cause I'm gonna be DEAD at 27yrs!"

At twenty seven years of age,My father died instead.
Somehow,My Father spoke from within Me as i had NO IDEA what I were about to say,it just forced its way outa Me,and into the Principals Office,and which also caused the two focused proffessionals to cringe
and look down upon Me with fear in their faces!
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Post by greasemonkey Tue May 19, 2009 4:54 am

I gotta get this Book started,
Its bursting outa Me!
lol


How does One start?
Do I just keep writing in here,or is it not-publishable
and advisable to take it from here
into closed quarters???
I feel so creative when im with you Folk
here in TBBDMB!
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Post by greasemonkey Wed May 20, 2009 4:12 am

My wife CAUGHT the Bloke red-handed.lol
she had to raise her voice as He were wearing head-phones!
He denied He was doing it!
and She showed him Her Camera.
He said "only Once!",and smiled cheekily in Her face.
She said,"LIAR!"
"Ive seen you three times,Ive got you on film!"
and He admitted doing it "only one time!"
and then touched her lightly on the forearm and said,
"I'm sorry,I sorry!"

She responded,
"I want to know why youre doing it...?"

He says everyone is doing it (LOL)
and He looks at the Seven empty Packets in front of Him,
ALL HIS OWN DOINGS...

She said, "if you dont stop I will go to Council."

what next?
strange men are many ehhh!
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Post by claire_sky Wed May 20, 2009 10:22 pm

Oh wow your wife is a very brave woman! I hate confrontation at all costs so i guess ive been very lucky in that no one has been throwing rubbish on my property or else i would be the new council dump by now!!! I had to laugh though, "everyone is doing it" hmmm very weird. But at least he said sorry, saying sorry does go along way and very few people say it these days. Maybe he will change his ways now. Heres hoping.

Your posts are most interesting Greasemonkey so writing a book is definately within your power! We all have a story to tell. If you are brave enough to share it then go for it. I struggle with words, i use too many words at times then other times i cant find the words to say what i mean. Blah.

Look forward to your next post.
cheers
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