Meh

Life Sucks.

Everyone else on here seems to be miserable.

Why not not moan about my own depressing existance.

I hate not having a reason to get out of bed in the morning

I hate being awake when everyone else is asleep, and being asleep when there are things I'm suppose to be doing.

I hate not having the energy to even be able to express what is wrong with me.

I hate feeling apathy to the point of making stupid decisions cos I just dont care any more.

I hate having assignments due over a week ago, and still no desire to even go near them.

I hate having a sore back from lying in bed all day, yet prefering that to doing anything else.

I hate that I let down people who depend on me.

I hate that the ability to feel good is within arms reach but I'm too lazy/miserable to take that step

I hate not knowing how I will feel tomorrow, and if I will get anything done.

And I hate knowing that I could fix all this if I just feel motivated and put in the effort.

Meh.

And, sorry hun, but I HATE that you have all the answers to all your own questions, but you are not listening to yourself. you know what you need to do, sooo do it. Jaffakiwi, I know you can turn this around. HUgs

tough-life it is when life is experienced as trapped. A good solution to being trapped is to enter cognitive therapy,where you enter a prior state of conciousness,before mind(Jail is mind)so that you can expand and feel less closed-in Jaffa..Staying positive is also a fixation of mind,as is negative. Being out of my Mind I find i can work it BEST! Working the mind from the inside just aint enlightening aye!

hey jaff, how are you tonight?

come in Jaffa

hi gm

ello ML

Hey Jaffa, I am usually up till all hours so jump on here and if you put something in this thread my email will alert me and I can pop on and have a chat.

Hi guys.... I'm doing better now thanks. Pretty tired so dont have much to say but thanks for caring, I appreciate it.

hey guys, hope you are all well and safe today

Hi ML, my day is good so far, feeling a genuine smile coming on and feel all mellow inside. Huge relief, still going to keep that docs appointment next Tuesday though. I am good at listening to others but have never discussed my own feelings before and still feel very uncomfortable with it as you may have guessed when you have questioned me in the chat room. That will have to change.

are you still here bb - i'll see if your on chat

Save it for yourself!
Its important to develope a good expanse of self before you put it out jaffa.
I always advise to give out of excess unless your in the Zone.
In the zone
it just keeps comming.
Love

jaffakiwi wrote:Hi guys.... I'm doing better now thanks. Pretty tired so dont have much to say but thanks for caring, I appreciate it.