Ok, so this is me.

Im new to this website, and so wish that I had found it long ago!

I am a mother of 2 beautiful daughters, and even since the birth of my first, I have been battling depression. I have been on "happy pills" (as my Aunty calls them) on and off for the past 6 years, and have my good days and my bad days.

My life has recently been tipped on its head with my husband and I taking the girls and moving to Perth, life is lonely as nothing is familiar around here, you dont ever see the same person twice, and when people ask how you are today - they very rarely suspect you are lying to them when you say "Im fine" I miss my friends and family terribly, and sometimes fel myself sinking down into the depths of depression again, then start bawling because I dont wanna go back there. Every day is a struggle and sometimes all I want to do is sleep - but for those of you who have children, you know thats not an option.

I dont like to burden my husband with these feelings, hes the type of guy who gets angry (not violent) if he cant FIX the problem, I know that I cant give up and go home, because it would have been a complete waste of time and money moving over here, and I just need to find ways to pull me through. Im hoping that I get some support from the other members on this site to pep me up. Garfield is my best and dearest friend, and I felt like I was losing my soul when I had to leave her in NZ, which doesnt help matters much. So instead, I tend to suck it up and get on with it, however hard that may be sometimes.

I look forward to getting to know you all a little better, and look forward to the support networks Im sure I can build.

take care
goquikchic

Hi there, welcome aboard. Homesickness is just the pits isn't it, I feel for you. Is it at all possible to plan a wee visit home. Maybe if you can't do it just now, you could plan for say a year away. It would give you something to work towards and to look forward to. How old are your children??. I know when my children were little, I was able to work evenings, whilst hubby looked after them. That not only gave me pocket money, but it gave me the opportunity to meet and make new friends, adult company, which you so need when you are at home with children all day. Take care, Pam.

Hi Pam
Thanks for the welcome.
Honestly, Im too scared to go home, even for a visit, because Im sure that I wont come back - lol. Im just trying to talk everyone I can into coming Perth, except the flights are quite dear at the moment.

My girls are 6 and 2, and I have recently scored a Part time job which I start next week, working evenings, which is what I did at home, so yea, I am quite looking forward to getting back to work and try to establish some normality in my life again, things should start to look a bit better soon I hope

Well done. Well hun, maybe if you can't go home, you could put some of your earnings away to help someone you love visit. Working will be good for you, less time to think about those that you have left behind and focus more on your new friends and new life. Hugs.

Hey Love,

How are you holding up, sounds like you down more than you told me on the phone chicky........(((((((((((HUGS((((((((((((((
I so wish I could be there to help you or at least that way we could both be crazy together… lol
Babe is it maybe time to go back on meds???
I know...I know I hated it too but mum and my doc said to me it's just like having diabetes’s, you need them to live a normal life. Wouldn't you want to take one (for some more) small pill and be the wonderful special person that you were before the black cloud came by.
(not that your not wonderful and special cause to me you will always be that).
but as the days go by and I'm getting back on track, I am so glad that I'm back on them because I can be me again and laugh truly 100% belly laugh.
babe YOU DESEVE to have some happiness and light and love in your life and you DESEVE to TRULY FEEL that happiness.

bossy bestie out...... lol