Probably just rambling but..

It scares the crap out of me, but I don't know why when people younger than me can do it- It makes me feel pathetic

i think it a couple of things called 'pride' and embarresment get in the way, oh and what others think...could be the case for me..

Yeah, that' sounds about right... sigh

jaffakiwi wrote:Qwerky, every one of your posts here could have been written by me because I feel EXCACTLY the same way.

Life is just annoying. When we have problems, we live for the day we dont have problems. When we don't have problems, life is still just boring and pointless.

Yip now i could have written exactly what jaffakiwi just said! Its all sooo familiar, we can all relate. I guess its something that happens to a few of us huh? Maybe its an age thing too? We are all in our 20s and feel sad and depressed when we realise this is all there is to life. Go to work, come home, go to work come home. I think alot of people our age go through it too but they can just brush it off and carry on. But I couldnt. I got stuck here with these horrible feelings.

But ...

To be continued

Im still a 'work in progress' hahaha no sucess story yet ... Did you see that "yet' meaning i havn't given up home.

No one said it would be easy, only that it would be worth it. So thats what im hanging in here for!

Keep on posting qwerky, you will soon find how therapeutic it is to even be able talk about feelings without feeling weird. ITs helpful. Honest.

I'm not worthy enough to be working where to work. Someone who is willing to learn, who could make a career out of this should belong here. Not someone who hates her life..
Gah, I try explain things but nothing turns out the way I try and explain it- It makes me feel so incredibly dumb.

qwerky, a question for you, yeah i know again ... what do you like doing (apart from partying etc)....

I don't like aprtying anymore- Too many bad experiences!
I love animals- cats, friendly cats. That's pretty much it to be honest. I can't think of anything else.

great,

have you thought about voluteer work (or paid work) at your local spca or pound?

Nope, couldn't handle that. Too sad

what about fostering animals?

Don't know to be honest

woah! i just read this thread and i coulda sworn some of your posts qwerky, would be something i would have typed!

i cannot stand lying awake at night either, to the point where my nights turn to days and vise versa (i am not working)
my doctor told me to try this:
exercise
no caffiene after 3pm
no heavy meals or snacks after 7pm
if you cannot sleep get up after half an hour,stay up 4 half an hour, then go back to bed and try again. repeat the process iff need be.
Lavender relaxes you,so u could try a few drops of lavender oil in a bath before bed maybe??

i think it would be wise to go to your doctor-the first step is the hardest and we have all been there. make sure its a doctor you are comfortable with,

ive spent nearly 4 years doing nothing,enjoying nothing and not working or studying, pretty much felt like i was a waste of space -lukily 4 me the tide has finally turned and things are beginning to look up for me. so i kinda know how you feel...but believe me it WILL get better, you may not see it as yet but it will!! admit your problems and be honest to yourself .

enough rambling from me-but keep your head up & i hope you get out of your rut soon

how rude of me!!!!!

welcome to the family qwerky

Haha thanks

we can all relate to how you are feeling...you are not alone qwerky

_wizza_ wrote:woah! i just read this thread and i coulda sworn some of your posts qwerky, would be something i would have typed!
ent nearly 4 years doing nothing,enjoying nothing and not working or studying, pretty much felt like i was a waste of space -lukily 4 me the tide has finally turned and things are beginning to look up for me. so i kinda know how you feel...but believe me it WILL get better, you may not see it as yet but it will!! admit your problems and be honest to yourself .

hey Wizz, just wondering how things got better for you, or what caused things to be better?

do tell wizza, are you like me where some days are just plain out good, some bad, and just one thing can trigger a bad feeling time..

I do really think mine could be hormonal..

i wont take over qwerkys thread so ill write in my journal.

how are you today qwerky??

who cares aye..

We do. I'm sorry for diverting the thread. We do care. Apathy is a natural coping mechanism for depression. I feel for you.

what does that mean?

It means that we care for you even if you don't.

Not caring for yourself is a natural progression in depression,

Are there any other signs (apart form the ones on sites) about symptoms that you have noticed?

I don't want to believe this is what I have. I'm trying to see it from every angle possible!

well to tell you the truth, i don't know, I am kinda learning as I go.

But when I read through some of these threads, i do see patterns

Ok, well thanks anyway