Experiences in Meditation

I write this from my education of many many years
with Masters of Meditation.
Please dont ask who,
as I am not soliciting for anyone particular Master;all of them are seated in the right Place
otherwise I would never have found them,aye.

When one is doing this so called 'practice of meditation'
odd things sometimes happen,especially when you're
indulging in the PEACE and TRANQUILITY which comes to you during practice,
things that you have no control over,they just occur,like a shifts of energy within our physical body,fluttering,heat,cold,sensations,visions,sounds,scent,memories arrive;abreactions sometime happen.

I were instructed by each of these Masters much the same thing,
that all these occurances simply come about within the Body-Mind.(ie,mind is situated in the Body)
and pockets of tension can be released all of a sudden and this released-energy is the basis of a happening.
It dosnt stay,
you cant hold it,
so you allows things to pass,
even the good things.
Nothing is permanent.

Everything is energy,
and the energy that is stored in our sub-concious mind (the zone we are un-concious of)
can move into conciousness at any given moment,
due to the practitioners depth of equilibrium,
or balance.

One does not have Peace and Tranquility when imbalanced.

Recently,
three and a half moons ago,
I had been sitting in peace for a long time
on my kneeling stool,a stool which i use as My lower back were injured in a Home Invasion,1999.
As I began to stand-up after meditation,
a rush began deep down inside me
and out from the inner darkness a ball of brightlight burst up from my inner-most-mind inside my body and moved swiftly upwards.

I had been in similar predicaments before in life,
after a sweat-lodge sitting with men,
and when threatened by an intruder in the dead of night,
and i new what i were dealing with here,
so I set myself steady onfoot,
so as to Not Be overwhelmed and become unconcious by the huge rush of energy
and i crossed my arms at chest height to contain the Force within my bodymind
so as to not loose it and go unconcious.

Successful I were with this immediate rendition of my intuition and the Light were arrested at heart level,and as held fast,it began to emerge out through my physical body in all directions at once,
like an expanding bubble.
Fizzling through my body it did for several seconds,
and when the force had dissipated and my body were alight and full of it,I came out of the crossed arms and slightly bent knee posture i were in
and rejoined the family as though
nothing had happened.
When I went to walk my son to school 30 minutes later
everyone on the street that we met,walking in the opposite dierction
seemed to know me;I had never seen them before,and they all said 'hello' smilingly
and wanted to talk to me as though i were some-sort of a Movie Star
come to town.
My Son were highly embarrassed
and took to walking a fare distance apart from myself
as Children do when their Parents attract too much attention.

But I had no way of concealling the bright which Flooded out willy-nilly
so I had to seccumb to the bliss i felt in my Body-tissue,
that which made me smile inwardly and outwardly
simultaniously.

It were then i realised where my life had gone
i had come full circle
and I were back at the start of my depression.

I tossed it around alittle and realised that stopping the anti-depressants all at once would be a good test,
so i did and immediately told my Dr who freaked-out due to the knowledge they had(and which I have also)
about when ppl stop their medication.

This linking or creating the full-circle is interesting-stuff,
because i had earlier realised(weeks before the event) that the anti-depressant chemicals had killed my natural indepth feelings somewhat;sex had dropped off completely,I were unable to get it up.