Re: The New Depression Thread.

[earthangel4]

Hello every one Well my heart is feeling heavy tonight. I feel like having a big cry. My hubby has been late every night this week trying to get the race car ready for racing. Chay has been such a honey nearly all this week. His mum and I had a big fight on skype tonight but I am not going to give into her. She thinks she can just step back into this boys life when she comes back from Aussie and up lift him. Well I can be a bitch when it comes to my Grandchildren I have not put in the last seven months of hard work just for her to come and stuff it up again. I got a letter the other day from my son in prison. Had a cry that night. As I said to my mum no matter what my children do I still love them.

Hugs to every one

Paddy no more falls

Awww hun,angel hugs to you,like you no matter what my children have done,they are still my children,love them too bits.

[earthangel4]

Hello all,
beautiful day here in Grey,have work this afternoon,but its all good,as dp and wee dog have gone to the lake in the camper.
I am sitting at home in the sun until this afternoon.
The new meds I am on {Seroquel} are helping me,feel so good,helping me with my bi polar,I now know I have it,but it is not the end of the world.
Happy Easter everyone,and don,t eat too many Easter eggs lol

[brucie261]

Hi all,
hope you are all having a good weekend!
I really hope we have some lovely weather tomorrow!! Don't like our chances but boy would it be great to actually get something done outside!!
Did a bit of firewood today, we chopped down a big gum tree last year and have had it out drying but with all this rain it's been getting soaked!! So moved it all under shelter, sooooo many spiders and cockroaches!!! even had a worm crawl over my arm ick!!!
I've got 2 little kittens here with me who still have blue eyes so am guessing they are 5 weeks old! I've got them eating biccies, jellymeat and milk. Trying to get them off the jelly meat asap as boy does it make them smell!! LC I can see why you do it they are soo entertaining!! Sabre my 15 month old amstaff x is sooo gentle with them!! I'm limiting their time together as when the kittens start to play he tries to!! He doesn't realise his size or strength!!!
EA hun glad that your feeling better on these meds!!!
Max hun hope you have got home safe!! So glad you got to meet Paddy today!!!
Am just waiting on the roast in the oven to be ready then we are going to chill out and watch Skrek 3!!

[max17]

Hi Every one. Well Thank you Paddy. I wish we could of stayed longer. The boy is still getting through the eggs. Boy that racing was so much fun. Too much in fact. I had one of those dam blackouts and ended up head down and butt up. Not plesent at all while you have two mean trying to haul you back up to get into the wheel chair. There were a a couple of cars that caught fire. Chay was a bit over the top but he was with a croup of children. There was a fire works display but I must say our ones back here are a lot better. the motel we stayed in was great. Chay had his own room. Ya hoo. Left Palmy at 6 am this morning and got home about 2,30pm. Towing a heavy trailer does not help. Then I have just heard from my mum that my sister is home from Aussie for a while so I hope to catch up with her soon.

Love and hugs to all.

Paddy miss ya already.

[Paddy]

Max hon, I'm sure I told you not to have a spill, or else!

So, 'tis 'or else' time, by the looks of things, sorry. Nah, I'll let you off one more time, k? Goodo.

Feck, I hurt myself sneezing a few days back.

My lower back and stomach-flab muscles got a stir along and apparently didn't like it much. Ow. It somehow ended up in a monumental cramp-session which my anti-cramp med didn't touch. So I sat under the hot shower for as long as the water stayed hot, then warm then not so warm, but out before it got stupidly cold, pffft. I'm dreading sneezing again. Good excuse not to do housework. It really hurt. Still does, to a degree. Woe is me, sigh.

Paddy.

[max17]

Hi again well didn't tell you what happened the other night. Went to the fresser to get an iceblock and the bloody fish jumped out and landed on my little toe. Well three days later I can just walk and the bruiseing has gone up my foot to my ankle at this stage. Shite it hurt

[Paddy]

You don't have to worry about how to Find Nemo, Max;

Nemo found you! Ow.

Hope you're feeling more gooda now, how.

Feck, I'm sore. Last few days my legs have felt like they are on fire, with stupid nerve pain everywhere. Its not a lot of fun, to be honest but I was fortunate in borrowing a mobility scooter today to get to the shops. I was finally able to 'get' heavy stuff like cheese and sugar as well as milk and cat food.

Pffft, TBT. She Wins again. I gave up and got her the cat biscuits she likes, as opposed to the cat biscuits my wallet liked. Like a rat up a drainpipe, she was. A sonic-boom eating session, lol. Wisely she stayed indoors last night when we had a possum shit and piss on our front porch. Even more wisely, so did I.

Did I say I'm sore? Feck. This is not a lotta fun. Neba mind.

Reet, happy moving weekend. Hope it goes well for ya, hon.

All of ya's have a good, safe and enjoyable weekend - I dare ya to. I intend to. I might torment me cat. And get a Lotto ticket.

Paddy.

[earthangel4]

Hello,
I am back,had a lovely break,am home till saturday,then dp are away in the campervan for a week.
I am keeping well,on my new meds.
Hope you are all well,am very tired ,so will pop in tomorrow
Angel

[max17]

Hello every one. Well My little business is starting to take off. I am still trying to sort out the bedrooms. Oh how I wish I had a fairy to clean and dust while I just crochet.

Earthangle I so please you are home

[*~*Beej*~*]

*~* hullo *~*

I have been "trying" to figure out life and kinda thought that it would be easier to "get thru" life IF I didn't acknowledge "stuff" and in a way it is but when I "sleep" haha whats that? it comes back to haunt me!!

so thought that maybe "hiding" from reality isn't the right thing to do and I miss you guys and your friendship.

so I"M BACK, I have been following the thread on TM but seem to be constantly "tired" which is a part and parcel of the fibro, and am just lacking energy for posting,

am trying really really hard to get myself together and it just doesn't seem to want to happen,

I dont know whether I should train to work (dont know if I will ever be able to work again because of the fibro and connective tissue disorder) and I recently did an online "test" that said that It was highly likely that I have aspergers (which has really thrown me out) but now that I think about it it really fits me.

so at the moment I am at a bit of a loss, and sorry to come in here and off load but I know you guys care and even better you understand.

thanks everyone for just being YOU

[earthangel4]

*~* hullo *~*

I have been "trying" to figure out life and kinda thought that it would be easier to "get thru" life IF I didn't acknowledge "stuff" and in a way it is but when I "sleep" haha whats that? it comes back to haunt me!!

so thought that maybe "hiding" from reality isn't the right thing to do and I miss you guys and your friendship.

so I"M BACK, I have been following the thread on TM but seem to be constantly "tired" which is a part and parcel of the fibro, and am just lacking energy for posting,

am trying really really hard to get myself together and it just doesn't seem to want to happen,

I dont know whether I should train to work (dont know if I will ever be able to work again because of the fibro and connective tissue disorder) and I recently did an online "test" that said that It was highly likely that I have aspergers (which has really thrown me out) but now that I think about it it really fits me.

so at the moment I am at a bit of a loss, and sorry to come in here and off load but I know you guys care and even better you understand.

thanks everyone for just being YOU

Hello dear friend,now that I am on top of things,with my new meds,time for me to help you.
You need time to heal,time to rest,as sleeping is healing,do not worry about work,or house work.
I too think you have aspergers,but do not worry.
You have others there that can cook clean,ect.
Does your hubby do anything?
I am here for you hun.
We are going away for a week on sat,but here till then.
Angel hugs always
Angel xxxxoooo

[*~*Beej*~*]

Hey Angel

thanks so much for that.
I initially was really really freaked about being an aspie but now I aren't anymore,
I certainly get the OCD part of it.
and I cant do crowds and I dont understand body language ( at all)
loud noises really throw me out
I have a speech impediment when I get excited and the worse (I think) is I take people very very literally & trust everyone (until its too late)
I think thats why I love animals soo much.

Thanks Earthangel for being there I really really appreciate it

I am a bit down (well quite a bit) because I had planned on going up to Auckland to stay with friends this weekend and its been on and off then on and now I've just had to call it off (for final) cos my dog has a naffed foot and I cant afford both.

shes worth it as shes my best friend but I am really gutted, I was really looking forward to getting away & spending time with my friends

[earthangel4]

Hey Angel

thanks so much for that.
I initially was really really freaked about being an aspie but now I aren't anymore,
I certainly get the OCD part of it.
and I cant do crowds and I dont understand body language ( at all)
loud noises really throw me out
I have a speech impediment when I get excited and the worse (I think) is I take people very very literally & trust everyone (until its too late)
I think thats why I love animals soo much.

Thanks Earthangel for being there I really really appreciate it

I am a bit down (well quite a bit) because I had planned on going up to Auckland to stay with friends this weekend and its been on and off then on and now I've just had to call it off (for final) cos my dog has a naffed foot and I cant afford both.

shes worth it as shes my best friend but I am really gutted, I was really looking forward to getting away & spending time with my friends

Hello my dear friend,
You will be ok,I too think you need to get your dog seen too,as that what I would do for Abby.
You can always do another trip with your friends another time,I know you are gutted,but there is always another time.
I also don,t do well in big crowds,but I don,t trust people,I hold them at arm length until I get to know them.
It will be ok hun,have you heard the saying pick yourself up,dust yourself all over and start again.
I am here until Saturday,we are going to Nelson creek,it is half an hour from here,I think,has bush walks and one pub with takeaways.
I love to cook,so take all our food with us,and me being gluten free,as I have ceolaic disease,have to be careful.
You take care sweet lady,and eat what you enjoy must.
Love you girl
Angel xxxoooo

[*~*Beej*~*]

Hello my dear friend,
You will be ok,I too think you need to get your dog seen too,as that what I would do for Abby.
You can always do another trip with your friends another time,I know you are gutted,but there is always another time.
I also don,t do well in big crowds,but I don,t trust people,I hold them at arm length until I get to know them.
It will be ok hun,have you heard the saying pick yourself up,dust yourself all over and start again.
I am here until Saturday,we are going to Nelson creek,it is half an hour from here,I think,has bush walks and one pub with takeaways.
I love to cook,so take all our food with us,and me being gluten free,as I have ceolaic disease,have to be careful.
You take care sweet lady,and eat what you enjoy must.
Love you girl
Angel xxxoooo [/quote]

Hey Angel

thanks for being there I really love clicking in here and "finding" you.
I have heard that Nelson Creek is a lovely spot, how neat that you two get to pack up and go out to the river and have bush walks, I would find that brilliant!!

thanks for reminding me of that saying, yes I am picking myself up and pulling myself together, its funny/wierd but I am actually feeling quite good about not going as I would have been really stretching the finances and now I'm not, so thats a good thing.

I hope that you are well, you seem much happier now than a few months ago, the doctor obviously got it right huh? thats brilliant.

need to sleep, I need to learn to manage this fibro, I just dont have a clue how to as its not the same thing, its always something different each day.

catch you later & thanks

[*~*Beej*~*]

WHERE IS EVERYONE???

are you all ok out there?
Reet ~ are you settling in? and is it warmer? hows your daughter doing?
Mits ~ whats happening with you?
LC ~ hows all your lovely animals? and you were having a weekend away a while back? how was that?
Books ~ how are you ? are you keeping yourself busy?
Brucie ~ I'm missing you,
Angel ~ hope your weekend is awesome, I am trying to talk the hubby into buying a wee caravan so that we can take off for weekends, they certainly aren't cheap tho. but can be forever hopeful, and hows wee Abby?

I am thinking of re-homing my girl, as I don't know that I am good enough for her. Shes a high energy working dog that needs work and is naughty and wants to attack other dogs/cats, the thing is that before I had this darned disease it wouldn't of been an issue but some days I just dont have the energy to correct her and that of course makes it much much worse.

In saying all of this she is brilliant at home but I just dont trust her when we are out, and am always stressing about her and her behaviour when we are out. I have a very good friend who is happy to take her (as a last resort - if I cant sort her out) and shes brilliant, I trust her with my life and Suzys too, I just dont know what to do, I find her exhausting and stressful and wonder if I had no dog or a dog that didn't stress me if my health would get better quicker.

Can you guys please help me with your thoughts on this.

I do love my dog, BUT sometimes just loving a dog is not enough for the dog as you have to also be able to keep it (and everything around it) safe.