Smileys

you could CHOOSE to be helped... Choose to have her feel welcome and useful. I wish I could help you somehow, that would make you feel good.

Your Dr may just know how you feel because he does see you everyday, and he also knows your medical background, so he is able to fill in the gaps.. I'm sure you dont have letters three feet high screaming out that you feel C.R.A.AP ( what coulour would they be if you did? )... most people dont notice whats in front of them anyway. ( sweeping generalisations are my forte)

Just think what a marvellous person you are and remember everyone needs help from time to time.. .. everyone...

wowinnz you are too...Marvellous I mean

ta.. i don't suppose you could get her to pop round to my place?

na but I will *hops on broom and screaks madly*

saturday again and its groundhog day from my own making..bloody back still sore and wonderful hubby vaccumed for me and has now taken the kids for a bike ride

my life just stretches out infront and I keep thinking is this IT

Oh my is this it never any excitement..where has my passion gone my fire my feelings

I love my husband my children my friends but it all just seems so removed

I have traveled the world and done so many exciting things but now just the thought of trying to arrange a holiday just freaks me out its just too hard

I want to live again

I am tired of being paranoid and wanting to be liked

what the hell is that about..who really cares if not everyone likes me

Dad today I am missing you so much and really want to talk to you..problem is I want to talk to you as you were five years ago not as you were before you died..I am not ready to be without you...you were my rock, never changing.
.now my home will be gone and I will have no place to go home to...I dont want to clean out all the memories from that part of my childhood because before that home my life was hell..its not a pretty home its old and dark and not really clean cause of course you werent a clean freak(thankgod). But the wall paper looks like birds and the couch is broken where I would jump on it like a trampoline and it smells like home..all my pets are buried in the back yard and you would mow around the trees or crosses I made and I would bring them home to you when they died
. I want my kids to know the younger you who could fix anything and would stop what you were doing to help..I know you were ready to go but I wasnt ready to be without you

Had a fantastic weekend and mothers day...so good to get off the island and I am feeling so good and the sky is blue

had a fight with lovely husband tonight about having to clear out dads house. I know I have to do it and sell it, I know this but I am still not ready...My poor man he really got it in the neck...sorry babe I still love you but its so hard for me.

I looked after a wee foster child today and what a we sweety ...

Ya cant save the world but you can make it a better place bit by bit

I have been out and about again a little.. still on a small scale but better!Still having trouble going into town and still no super market!Must do the super market or it will start to become a THING! and get bigger and bigger!!!

I am ment to go to a birthday party this weekend but I cant face it..the problem is I already said I was sick last year when it was her birthday and didnt go..dam it..maybe one of the kids can have a fever or something..problem is now they will let it slip that they werent sick..bugger bugger......Of course I could always be let down by the babysitter...AHAH!!!

where is the joy....

I am board but at a loss to change things as I dont want to change

I prefer the safety of my closed in world