Me myself and me

I always thought my life was mine
I always thought i was just me
I always thought that was just the way i am
How long has this been me
Who is this me
Where is me the real me
The deep down inside of me
Is there two of me
So many questions inside
A river raging
Waves crashing
Turmoil a storm within
Darkness black
Dead as night
No life within
Where is the hope
The will the need
Where is the sunshine

Disappear go within
Fall into the pit of darkness
the eternal no more
forever escape
undercover
A phantom of you
the shadow of you

no one permitted
no one allowed
all alone so lonely
content
feeling fufillment alone
no need to share
correspond and beyond
stand alone head down
no eyes for no one
nothing to see
nothing to be seen

cold and windy
dismal like the day
forceful the breeze
laughter i can hear
whispers that stare
twitter like the birds
never cease
follow the leader
no mind of thier own
follow the pied piper
on his whistle
he does blow
come do as i say
feel as i do
be here be near
envelope you
cover you
instill inside you
my fear

Inside is black
a battle rages
in the shadows
thats where i hide
darkness is my comfort
security
confusion in my own
something i sometimes fear
mystical madness deep inside my head
natty natty dread

Mythical the maze
a labrynth of thoughts
chaotic hypnotic
wander through
captured in a daze
floating in the breeze
no place to go
no place come from
nothing no one nowhere

i feel the sadness in her eyes
i feel the pain in her tense
her quietness speaks loud
telling me everything
yet she says not a word
i see the hurt in her face
why do i do these things
where do i go
when i am this me
who do i become
a chameleon of change
unknown to her
unknown to myself
why does my other me
like to hurt and confuse
am i not allowed love
why do i ruin the good
corrupt and destroy

Outside is so bright sun shiny
im scared to venture out
i prefer it in here
in the dark i feel comfort
in my bed i feel shelter
nothing can get me in here
no one can get in
no one can get through

Drug induced mind sober sunny day
the devil angels are out to play
running wild and free