Woppow

Hey all.


I am doing ok. I am still in hospital. and working well with the nurses so hopfully this will be the last ever time I am in here


I am likely going to be in here for the next 3-4 days.


I hope everyone is doing ok.


Laters all.

wow really pleased to hear from you wop my friend, you take care please!!!!

hey woppy hope you are ok!!

Hmm, I am starting to wonder if going off my meds were the right thing?


Nearly everyone I have talked with has said or meant something along the lines of your very unwell at the moment.
Because of this many people have stopped talking to me.
I know that there is someone reading and seeing everything I do on my laptop thats why I am using my mums computer to write this. and they are also listening to my phone calls and reading every txt I send.
I also know some people are after me. I dont know why they are after me. I dont want them to get me. If/when they do, They will do the same thing Jake did but they will keep doing it, even when I am begging for death. I am sure they are around my house waiting for me to leave.
Earlier this morning I did leave, I went to the mall with my mum and brother. They were watching from a distance at the mall. But they were getting closer so I had to go and wait in the car.
My leg hasnt stoped shaking for the last 5 hours. Its like its no longer a part of my body and has a mind of its own.
Jake has been with me ALL of the day normally its just most of the day. but it was all today well, yesterday. And with every day that goes by he gets louder.
and for those who dont know I am beginning to have this hype sense where I can tell what you are actually thinking.

I don't want anyone to kill me. I would rather do it myself. Atleast if I did it would be quick unlike what they have planned for me.


WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?

Oh yeah I forgot to write about how else they are trying to get to me. They have poisoned my food. I am not too sure about the water. But I am sure about them poisoning my food.

So if i do eat - like if my mum offers me something I have a very, very small amount so the poison wont have a huge affect on me. But if I can help it I try not to eat. - I havent had a good meal since Thursday.

Don't do anything stupid!

hmm I just checked facebook and she sent me a chat (which I wasn't there for) and she said bye (and said she meant it) late last night.

Woppow, I hope you are ok.

Going to go and see counselor now. I dont know whats going to happen. They more then likely are going to get me. But I have a back up plan.

Hey woppow,

can you please let us know how you get on with the counciller

For those who dont know I am in hospital. Well meant to be.

I am in the HDU. which means I cant have my cells. I will write more in about 2-3 hourrs.

ok thanks woppow,

Hey Chick!

Hope you're doing ok and I hope they're treating you well!

And yes, thanks for letting us know, I was starting to get worried, but thought you may have been somewhare like that.

Remember to try your best to accept the help and have an open mind for what they say.
I know that sounds hard, but doing that could open a lot of doors for recovery.

All the best,

Qwerky

Hey Lizzie, it is so good to know you are OK. I have been so worried about you but was hoping you were somewhere safe. PLEASE take the help that is being offered as you are such a lovely young lady and deserve to have a happy life. Looking forward to hearing from you again really soon. Lots of love Judy

Hey everybody.

Well as I said before I am meant to be in hospital. I decided I didn’t like it. And me being me I took off. I know it was wrong and I shouldn’t of. But being in that place was doing my head in! I was put in HDU for the last kinda of two nights. In Youth Inpatient Unit the HUD is the worst place in the whole hospital. There is no door handle. Altho that doesn’t matter coz they lock the door in three places. There is a microphone in the room and the speaker is in the nurses station. They can hear if you move one inch, if you fart or if you do ANYTHING. The worst thing about it. I have this fear of people listening to me pee. Because of this person at school said I peed loudly. Since then I havent been able to pee in front of anyone.

In the room there is only a “bed”, a blue canvas mattress, a toilet, a basin with a tap that doesn’t even work. And there is a shower. There is NOTHING to do in there. So I am just left there with Jake talking to me. And letting my mind going wandering. And for those who don’t know me. That is the worst thing for me to do. I get even more down. And get even more unwell.


In the unit its full! There is even someone having to sleep in the children unit.

I ran away last night too. But got picked up by cops.


Who knows whats going to happen. I must go.


I hope everyone is ok

Lizzie. I'm sorry but I am very disappointed!

You know you shouldn't have done that- yet you did. Even if you didn't like it there, you need to let them do their job and you need to let people help you out instead of running away from it all because you know that will not help you.
You know when (not if) they catch you, you will be put straight back in there again. You need to understand that for you to leave free you need to do "the time" in there, you need to stay to get the help you are offered.

You have even said so yourself that you get worse, so you need to reflect when you're in the room by yourself. Just reflect on the things you've done and all the people who have helped you and who are still helping you through this.
You know no matter what, we will all be here for you, you need to take advantage of the fact you're in there and either learn and get the help.

You are in there for a reason and that reason alone should encourage you to strive for help, strive to get better. Especially if you say you hate it..

Lizzie, we all want you to be a happy teenager. You know you want to be like that too..Give yourself a bit of faith and face everything head on.

Just take very good care.. Please