Wop/Lizzie's daily course Log!!!

Right today.

In the morning it was problem solving. The group did really well. and we did two problems that we couldnt solve on monday.

afternoon was Kayaking. I hate kayaking. The last time I went kayaking I was in a double one. and the person thought it would be funny to get out. and leave me in the middle of the sea!!! I wouldnt say who, Because that wouldnt be nice naming the person, aye OLIVIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But today I was the first to flip. and the last to flip we were in the water for 30 mins and 10 of that was me on the kayak. and the other 20 was me being in the water tryin to get back on. But on the plus side I did save someones life. Her kayak fliped and she couldnt get out so I jumped off my kayak and swam to help her. (this is the female who I cant stand and who I was close to hitting yesterday)

And after course Me, My support worker and the staff had a meeting about what to do if I got in a low mood again.

wow sounds like a good day for you wop, I have never tried Kayaking but my boys do it all the time..

Good for you!

Today was crappy. In the morning we just sat around. and then in the afternoon we sat around. Jake (my ex) was sitting next to me the whole time. But only I can see him. Like hes not really there. I hated it. I asked him to leave but he wouldnt. and kept telling me how shit I am.
But one ok thing was we went down to the park and did 10 mins of playing soccer.

Hi Woppow, Although you're not enjoying some of the course it is great you're doing it - do you feel better having your time a little structured?

Daze

I love having something to do during the day. and I love knowing like I am at course 9am until 3-4pm.

Today was an ok day. We first did a quiz about what we have learned so far. I won that. lol. and then we went swimming. Just so they can make sure we can all swim. After swimming a lap everyone got free time. the whole group (But not me) went into the wave pool. I felt old but I went into the spas . hehe. and then into the steam room. Man I could of stayed in the hot spas for the whole day. But then we had to go. and on the way home John (the staff guy) brought all of us some hot chips !!!!

To make today even better. I decided I would bike to course. Just coz I freak out on the bus. and I do not enjoy people's asses in my face! And I survived my 1 hour ride there and my 1 hour ride home! (but now since noone is due home for a couple of hours and I am hot and sweaty I am just in bra and boxer! I just thought I would share that piece of information to the whole wide world )


So all in all a good day at course.


BTW for anyone who doesnt know. Tonight I am flying up to auckland to hang out with olivia/Oliviaheartsmo. So I probably wont be in the chat box or msn much this weekend.

good for you lizzie and have a good weekend?

Weekend was ok. We had a fair few bumps in the weekend.

Today at course was all first aid. Tomorrow at course once again first aid again for a whole day. and then Hopefully see someone hopefully my doc cooooz yeah......... Yeah I dont wana say why as some people dont know and I want that to stay like that.


Today my mood is rock. I am startin to really get worst and worst as the days go by. - hopefully there wont be much more days. (take that as what ever way u read it, I will leave it open)

Yesterday was first aid. I had to walk out half way thru coz I was close to hitting this one bitch.

Today was this dumb sit down thing in the morning. and then in the afternoon it was rock climbing. I didnt feel like going rock climbing. so I didnt. I just sat down and watched

good girl, i am proud of you, you walked away.

Yeah I am happy I had enough control to walk away. because if I hit her (which would of done all to easily) If I would of then I would of been kicked off my course.

Today was an ok day. In the morning we talked thru about what to take on tramps and how to plan tramps. In the afternoon we broke up into three groups and went to different outdoor shops. We had to price up what stuff we would need on a over night tramp. I think my team did ok. We priced everything including some food for just under $600. If my group gets the lowest costing kit. We win a YMCA vest each. Which I want!!! tehe. We find out tomorrow which team wins.
And even in the lunch break I had a quick try at playing hacking sack with the rest of the group


Oh yeah I changed my Picture. thats my new look. BTW I havent worn my black lipstick or eye liner since that pix. Oh yeah just a tip for Paddy. Dont put on eye liner unless u have eye makeup remover , Thats a special tip just for Paddy coz i know u love the eye liner

Today I am rather pissed off.

I am not allowed to go on any overnight camps until i get myself a counselor. and tomorrow they are all going on a tramp/over night camp up into the Arthurs Pass. and I am not allowed to go. So I walked out today at 10am coz all they were doing was planning the trip.

Walking home/respite I walked down a busy road. I for about 3 secs thought about stepping out into the road. But instead I hit the fence.

I just hate being treated different!!!!!!!

hi hun...really sorry to hear you had such a shit day on tuesday...hope your mood has improved since.

I think you made the right choice in the road verses fence moment...we would all hate you to leave us...or end up spending months in a hospital bed while your body painfully repairs itself.

will it be hard to find a counselor so you can particapate in the camps?...I would hate to miss that part of the course if it was me.

and yea...being treated differently to others sucks the big one...but it is something that we all have to deal with at different times of our lives...and a lot of the time all we can do is suck it up and get on with life.

Hey Britelite thanks for replying .

I have tried going to 198 - its a free youth clinic they off like counseling, nurses, docs, and stuff like that, But they were all booked up. they were meant to ring me if someone canceled. I havent heard anything
I think I might see about maybe going to someone that cost money but see if winz will pay, or something like that. If that fails I could go thru ACC. But I am not really to talked about the big 'R' word.

Today at course was horrible. John - the 'teacher' asked everyone to share camp stories. It made me feel even worst. but then the rest of the day was ok. Although I nearly got a 55 dollar fine for biking on the footpath. - I nearly got hit 4 times today within a hour - while biking on the road.
At course we just did some brain storming about if they should make a new course. and then just cleaned up the place.

hey wop, so what now for you?

Hey Mylife.

Hmm for now I am just trying to get thru the week. - Which is alot better then a couple of months ago. I was just trying to get thru the hour.