JK - my space.

Enjoy your little break JK - a very good thing to do ......... Daze

I have been thinking a lot recently about my involvement with this website.

I think its fair to say I've been one of the more active members of this website - prior to throwing a huffy and deleting my account I think I was the top 6th poster around here.

I wonder now if I have involved myself too much. Sometimes its good just to step back. Because I am a rescuer. I want to be able to help every single person out there that is struggling with depression, but I dont think the way i was doing that was right.

Yes I enjoy chatting to others here and lending an ear when I can, but ultimately doing that ALL THE TIME does get myself down. There is a big frustrating conflict between wanting to be there for others, wanting to solve their problems for them, but not being able to.

I think I need to realise and accept that its not necessary for me to be on this message board all the time. Its not necessary for me to follow every single thread.

My parents pointed out today that if I become too widely known as 'that sensitive, compassionate depressed guy that understands and gets it', everybody will want to dump their problems on me.

Perhaps it is time to rebuild my image? Perhaps its ok just to have a couple of friends on here and not to feel like i have to save everybody?

I love that people on this site say that it should be used in whatever way works for you. I guess I'm trying to figure out what that way is.

JK.
P.S. Arrived in Gisborne yesterday and am enjoying my holiday

Morning Jaffa,
I think its about having a good balance. When something or someone is zapping all your energy, then is time to rethink where best to use your energy. If you feel you are spending too much time here, maybe just step away a little, doesn't mean you have to leave, it just means you are giving yourself some time. I think you would find that most people here post and support when they are able to, when they are in a good space, so no, it is not nessessary to save everyone else, when you need the time to save yourself.

Hello Jaffa, I think it is good that you're questioning yourself re this site - when you're 'scripted' as a caretaker/rescuer it's hard not to want to 'fix the world' and the people in it! It can feel quite 'selfish' to take care of yourself first - it can be done by just stopping and thinking 'is this best for me or am I putting someone else first'. Using available energy is fine - just too much given to others can leave one feeling depleted.

Enjoy your break - and I hope the weather is fine!

Daze

I've decided this place is not for me.
Take care everybody.

JK.

Hi Jk ..... Sorry to see you go .... take good care of yourself ......

Daze

Guest wrote:I have been thinking a lot recently about my involvement with this website.

I think its fair to say I've been one of the more active members of this website - prior to throwing a huffy and deleting my account I think I was the top 6th poster around here.

I wonder now if I have involved myself too much. Sometimes its good just to step back. Because I am a rescuer. I want to be able to help every single person out there that is struggling with depression, but I dont think the way i was doing that was right.

Yes I enjoy chatting to others here and lending an ear when I can, but ultimately doing that ALL THE TIME does get myself down. There is a big frustrating conflict between wanting to be there for others, wanting to solve their problems for them, but not being able to.

I think I need to realise and accept that its not necessary for me to be on this message board all the time. Its not necessary for me to follow every single thread.

My parents pointed out today that if I become too widely known as 'that sensitive, compassionate depressed guy that understands and gets it', everybody will want to dump their problems on me.

Perhaps it is time to rebuild my image? Perhaps its ok just to have a couple of friends on here and not to feel like i have to save everybody?

I love that people on this site say that it should be used in whatever way works for you. I guess I'm trying to figure out what that way is.

JK.
P.S. Arrived in Gisborne yesterday and am enjoying my holiday

A BRILLIANT REALISATION JK

without this honesty you exhibit so freely
you would stagnate.
After a short while, after the cementing of conciousness in your formative mind, you will return,
as You now-know something-super
which no-one will be able to shake-off,
Transparency!

You will always be welcomed back.
Doors will open to you which ever way you choose to turn.
Happy travelling JK

JK wrote:I just thought I'd mention I am doing really well lately. University is over - finished forever. I'm getting heaps of work in my caregiving job (not excactly my career ambition but good for the moment). I have a good friend moving in with me soon. The sun is shining a lot. I'm getting out and being sociable. Lots of people are hitting on me recently! lol, so I'm feeling attractive, and friendly.

Everything just seems to be really good. =]

Just comming OUT
was what did it.

Fantastic.

I have spent the last few days out
and am full of juice!