Citalopram

qwerky90 wrote:So people might love me more?

That took courage Qwerky. A beautiful, courageous piece of honesty. For once, you have given me a reason to like you.

I don't really understand what you mean, about how I haven't given you a reason to like me.

Sorry

Qwerky, I know acceptance and being liked by other people seems really important, but you know, there are no perfect people out there, and it really doesn't matter if people like you or not, as long as you learn to like yourself.

You seem an open caring person to me, and those are qualities that are in very short supply in a lot of people.

You're an ok person, don't forget that!!

I have always tried to live my life by the golden rule "do unto other as you would have them do unto you" or treat others as you would like them to treat you.

People like us, with depression need to change that a little.
My motto is now, "do unto myself as I would do unto others", in short, treat me with the same kindness, respect and forgiveness, that I give other people.

ok i'm being stupid- sure whatever.
I'll stop talking now. I'll only get myself in trouble

No way are you being stupid, infact you are being very wise.
You are talking about how you are feeling, and not bottling it up.

That takes guts to do Qwerky, I still find it hard to talk.

Talk until you can't talk anymore, do whatever it takes to feel better.

Scream yell, jump up and down and wave your knickers in the air, you life is about you, it's yours to claim, anyway you can.

Get angry if you have to,
You know what I do, I get an old phone book, write the name of the person that is getting to me on the front, and tear that phone book into as many pieces as I can.

Makes a hell of mess, and of course I end up having to clean it up. I may look like a total looney when I'm doing it, but by god it's fun!!

Hi Qwerk, sorry I made a typo.
I meant to say you have given me a reason to like you. I could see what you you were doing, and it annoyed me at times.

It was really refreshing to me to see you acknowledge one of your flaws.

Recently I've discovered I am more attracted to people who have flaws and admit them, than those who pretend to be perfect.

we all have flaws, and no one is perfect!

Qwerky, you are not stupid, you are an attractive, smart young women - you know that in your heart of hearts.

I'll add more soon, just need to get going out

My Brother is on Citalopram also. He feels it doesnt work, Like you do. - I am just letting you know ur not alone. Hes doc is thinking about upper the dose. Do you think that would work for you?

Not sure Wop.

Yes... Don't go cold turkey when on citalopram- Makes you feel horrible! Only 4 days off them and wow..My poor poor body!

When I move my eyes and head around I feel like i'll topple over and/or throw up. Also I feel a lot of muscles in my face that I normally don't think I feel. Strange huh.
When I move my eyes from side to side I can hear something in my ears. (not sure if it is noramlly there though.)
It's also like my head pulsates once (but is not sore) every so often.
I can also feel my heartbeat more than usual.

But a plus is that i'm not hungry!



But I know I deserve it as I chose to do this to begin with. But I have learn't my lesson and am starting back on them again.

But you know- People have to do silly things to learn for themselves...unfortunate, but true.

Oh mate, sometimes, ya needs to listen to ya UnclePaddy, qwerky, sweetheart.

I don't wanna say I told ya so 'cos as I said in my post on Page One of this Tread, you are an adult, and you need to figure out stuff that works (or doesn't) for you.

Now hon, I'm not critising you, cos I've 'stopped' the meds in exactly the same way, over the years and I'm sure someone probably said 'Paddy, it aint that good an idea mate', but pffft, ya gotta learn some of this shit for yourself, and some lessons take a few repeats before the message starts to stick.

Just, please qwerky, don't be too harsh on yourself, eh? Cos Im sure there is no reason for you to be.

Illness happens.

So does wellness and I promise you that if you give them just a fraction of a chance even, some good times will sneak up and be there before you even notice them.

UnclePaddy.

haha Paddy - you are old enough to be her father - as well as Qwery's Uncle!!

sorry just had to throw that one in because, well, just because! And of course I don't have paddy2 on at all!

And I agree Qwerky, don't be so hard on yourself, we are all human - to err is human to completly f*** up is a machine - you haven't f***** up so your human I am pleased to say.

Keep your chin up ay?

Let us know how your going ok Qwerky!