hi all, im a newbie here, found this place thanks to trademe while browsing.

I am suffering from some sort of depression, triggered by alot of different issues which has been going on for about the last 4 years. About a month ago, after yet another heated argument with my partner I just snapped, and i guess reached breaking point and tried to hang myself. Thank god my partner found me on time, and am greatful to still be here. I havent felt like the same me before the incident and find it hard to get into any kind of a routine, and have to really push myself to get through the day, which is a real battle with my 2 little ones being under 4. Ive seen my gp who has referred me on to councilling, of which i dont have an appointment till october 1st, and so thought i might be able to come on this mb and find people who understand what im going through, or who may be able to relate to me and can offer me some advice. Sorry if i dont make complete sense.

Hi there, it is really nice to meet you. Most of us here have experienced a lot of the things you mentioned (without the two little ones to look after) so you are in good company. Looking forward to getting to know you better as time goes by. I'm sure you'll find this site as friendly and helpful as I have.

I am so pleased that you have found the site helpful bluebird, i certainly have.

I must admit tho - i am addicted and tend to log on more than I should! It must be because they are such a great bunch of people!

Morning mumof3monkeys and a very big welcome to you.

afternoon all, thank you for the warm welcome, i do appreciate it, i will be back on later tonight as i have to take care of the mum duties, just thought id pop in, look forward to getting to know more people here, and getting use to this place.

I managed to get a much earlier appointment to see a counsellor thanks to a cancellation, so am off there tomorrow morning. Its the first session of my 6 free sessions, am a little nervous as its all new to me and not sure what to expect. I dont really want to go on any meds, i did once and didnt like it at all, i thought i may have been suffering from pnd but when i look back at things it was more a case of relationship problems and stress, things i guess i will talk in length about with the counsellor. Im just glad i have a place to come to and be able to talk about this, as i dont talk about it with anyone else.

Hi mum of 3 monkeys , you poor thing lucky your partner found you in time , i am new here also i also found this on trademe , i have been diagnosed with depression about 2 weeks ago , i am currently on medication i am feeling a bit better but yes i found this site really helpful , i didnt know anything about this illness but my partner and i have begun to understand a bit better i suggest you look for a book called "taming the big black dog" we have found this really great i can now see the difference between who is me and who is the illness there is also a page here for partners my partner has found this really helpful , warm welcome to you and like i have been told this is a positive thing because now you know what is wrong you can now work on it , good luck for tomorrow ...chin up and see you round ....

Hi again, just wanted to let you know that Paddy has a number of books available to borrow, just click on TBBD Lending Libary. I just had a wee look and the book Taming the big black dog is available through one of our other members, so have a look at that topic and you may be able to borrow rather than buy. Hope this is of help, Pam

Hi mumof3monkeys. Hope it all goes well for you tomorrow. Look forward to catching up with your progress.

hi ragamuffin thanks for your kind words and suggestion of the book, I actually read that book about 3yrs ago and also found it to be a great book, unfortunately i sold it about a year later when i was cleaning out the clutter, so will probably have to take your advice peterpam and look at the library in here, im still getting to know this place. Thanks bluebird im hoping tomorrow goes well too, i feel like i have alot of anger in me that i need to address and so many other feelings too, so look forward to getting help that will have me seeing things clearer. Thanks all once again.

Hi mum of 3 monkeys, welcome. Ih ave just been diagnosed with PND and have 2 little ones at home as well as working and dealing with a stressful relationship and daily pressure of life in general. Im Usually round in the evenings if you wanna chat, im looking find people in similar situations as me too. Talk soon

hi,
welcome i hope counciling will work well for you:]
and i think in a lot of ways your kids can be very stressful but a huge help:]
i look after two little girls and i love them to bits, they keep me [i would say sain but happy is a much better word sooo] HAPPY:]

Hi Mumof3monkeys

Hope the counselling went well and helped you feel a bit better i havent started mine yet dr wanted me to try medication first , i am on citalopram and i am finding it helps me to get up and do stuff also controling my mood swings , scince being on meds my partner and i have calmed down alot i think my picking made us argue more . what meds were you on previously ? maybe you could ask your dr about citalopram ? sounded like you need something to help you get through the day . well i hope you feeling better
bye for now

HI there Mumof3monkeys

Hope it went ok today, I found my first session stressful with some of the questions, but the 2nd one ok,

Just my experiance,

Let us know how you got on?