hi all, im a newbie here, found this place thanks to trademe while browsing.

afternoon all, had my first session today, was a little nervous today, and i get what you mean mylife by finding your first session stressful with the questions, i too felt a bit stressed too, but also understand it was necessary for her to understand me better and help me more. Although i cried a few times during the session i came out of it feeling just a little bit hopeful which is an improvement in me already, going from being withdrawn, distant and flat. I look forward to my next session which unfortunately is a month away unless i get slotted into a cancellation spot.

My other challenge which will help my state of mind is to change my diet and do more exercise, which i will try and work on over time. Im just glad ive had a good day today so far.

I hope everyone else has had a good day today too.

Thanks for the update mumof3monkeys,

I found questions a bit hard to take, especially the "have you thought about suicide' one... that bit hard for me.

But out at the other side, I think I personally am making some progress...

I had my second appt last week, and my third next week..ahh half way almost..

Then it is just the ACC sensitive claims ones I need to go to uugghhh!!

to answer your question before ragamuffin i was on aropax, but i didnt last long on them didnt like the side effects, especially when it started making my hair fall out, about 6 weeks after i had stopped taking it, my obvious bald patch grew back.

yes when i had to talk about my suicide attempt mylife it made me cry and was really hard for me to talk about too, its the first time i really talked about it in as much detail as i had too. I hope your sessions become easier for you mylife.

Night all I hope you all have a wonderful day tomorrow, i also hope i get to have another good day tomorrow, heres hoping.

Oh hell no wonder you didnt like them how horrible i have only been on my meds for 2 weeks no side effects yet but my best friend who also has depression has been on them for 6 mths and she has no side effects but yes it is all up to you how you want to deal with things i am happy your counselling went well but its sad you have to wait so long for your next session whats up with the system !!! Takes alot of courage to talk about your feelings im glad you were able to go through with it

afternoon all, had a good morning, managed to get the shopping done, just frustrating coming home and getting straight into more work, i hate when things get overwhelming coz i still dont handle too well and flip out, and then tend to feel quite tired and withdrawn after, like i do now. I like the fact that i can come here though and vent my thoughts and feelings it certainly does help me. Ill be back later gotta try and push myself to tidy up.

Hope everyones morning has been a good one so far.

hi mumof3monkeys...I know what you mean about having things get overwhelming...but I dont tend to flip out...I tend to shut right down...to the point where I simply dont remember to do the most basic stuff...like eat or shower or (like yesterday) forget that I had to run a wash of work clothes...and I had to go to work in dirty clothes!!...at least I work on a dairy farm and I don't think the cows minded

glad to see that you think the coucilling sessions will be of help

lol im sorry britelite but the comment about the cows made me laugh, i have my shut down periods too, ill start to do one job and thats fine, but then one of the kids will need cleaning, but then another one has broken something, then that overwhelming feeling kicks in, and i try to rush through to get all the jobs done, building up that feeling either to the point where i either give up and just finish what i need to and go back to bed and zone out, or start shouting and then going to bed and zoning out. I find it frustrating when i get advised to try and find 10mins to myself to meditate to try and calm down, not that easy when im the only one here to take care of the 3 kids while partner is at work from afternoon to night. aaaaarhhhh dont mind my rambling im just putting my thoughts into words, ill probably do that a bit, whatever helps right, lol

dont be sorry...glad I gave you a chuckle

I know what you mean about the impossible task of finding 10 mins to yourself to meditate...when you really need it there is simply no space in your day...having 3 kids at home by yourself in the evenings would try the patience of a saint as that always seems to be when kids are at their most stubborn or naughtiest or demanding...one lady I knew used to go to the toilet as that was the only spot the kids couldn't follow, and do 10 long slow deep breaths...she said it did help her stop 'loosing her rag' so much

and please ramble away...it will help

hi all, been a while since i posted, sorry. Ive been good, been busying myself spring cleaning, and when im in the mood to clean i really enjoy it, i like the feeling of getting rid of rubbish and clutter its a satisfying feeling. Hope i dont sound weird to everyone lol. I like the weekends because my partner is home and gives me a bit of a break from the kids to do other things, and i usually spend it in or outside the house cleaning something. We had a good family day on saturday, our family of 5 went to the plaza to get our oldest son a haircut, and when he got out of the car he didnt have any shoes on........and yet he was the one running in and out of the car telling us to hurry up lol. We had lunch and let the kids play in the kids area for a bit, then headed to the park to run the energy out of the kids lol, which worked and gave us some quiet time, much needed and rare.

Hope everyone is having a good day.

Susan.

ar we all from trade me? someone suggested this place on the mb the other day, hence why i came here to vent lol, the mb there is far too bitchy and judgmental unless you are one of the IN crwd then its (((HUGS))) til the cows come home, not that im into that mind you, i cant stand that mamby pamby stuff.

hi there, wow been ages since ive been back here, yeah looks like alot of us are from tm it seems lol, but i get what you mean its quite clicky on the mb's unfortunately, or fortunately lol, im not part of any of them.

hi there all

I don't visit the trademe thread much now, let alone post there.

I think in any group there are going to be 'subsets' of people - but in this particular site I think we all try to get along and sympathise with each other.

There are several good things about this site - threads are started independantly and can't be 'struck off' by a higher being (eg tm), and can be added too easily.

The difference here is that we are a group of people with the same disease - just in different forms with different stories to tell. On tm there are those who don't have depression in anyway shape or form sometimes posting on the depression thread.

Here you need to be a member to post on a thread, let alone get on the chat board.

i have not even noticed a thread for depression etc, those titles dont exactly grab my attention, i was lurking in another thread and someone mentioned this site.

Ive seen the depression thread in general but i dont post in there, as its too easy for those who dont genuinely want or need to post in there and make comments that could easily turn nasty like alot of the tm threads do. I do admit I havent been back here much because ive been stuck on facebook with the games, and coz i do post occasionally in general, (mostly non confrontational threads lol), but am glad to report that life has been good since i did start this thread, my partner and I talk more and get on better and our family is going away for our first family holiday in 6 and a half weeks.