http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/-t1.htm Mon, 23 Nov 2009 03:01:01 GMT 10 http://illiweb.com/fa/prosilver/site_logo.gif http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/-t1.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/how-the-hell-can-life-be-so-damn-unfair-t1248.htm logical-cents Just found out a workmate died today, collapsed and had a seizure in his isle and then died, not sure what caused it yet. This is the guy that recommended his doc to me, he had bi-polar, was a good guy. Had another workmate die earlier this year, she was too young to go as well. Another workmate is still currently in hospital, where she has been for the 3 or so weeks with meningitis and she nearly died. Another workmate has been in and out of hospital the last 8 months with heart problems. ... The Ventilation Chamber Fri, 20 Nov 2009 06:19:34 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/how-the-hell-can-life-be-so-damn-unfair-t1248.htm#11289 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/how-the-hell-can-life-be-so-damn-unfair-t1248.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/over-this-t1253.htm qwerky90

Over it, OVER IT!
Please, I hate feeling like this. ]]> The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 23 Nov 2009 03:01:01 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/over-this-t1253.htm#11343 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/over-this-t1253.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/bloody-meds-t1250.htm Angelique I feel worse not beta, FN doc writes a scrip and leaves me to it with no god damn support

mayb if I take em all at once that'll work!!!!!!!!

WHY CAN'T ANYONE HEAR ME SCREAM]]> The Ventilation Chamber Fri, 20 Nov 2009 19:21:23 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/bloody-meds-t1250.htm#11299 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/bloody-meds-t1250.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/no-more-t1247.htm Angelique
NO MORE... NO MORE... NO MORE... AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


NO RESPONSES]]> The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 19 Nov 2009 19:40:57 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/no-more-t1247.htm#11285 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/no-more-t1247.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/alcohol-t1231.htm laworder I came here tonight initially to vent, but got distracted posting to/ replying on some other threads here... and I now feel considerably better as a result... So once again, a big Thank you to Paddy! But anyway, on to what I originally set out to do... My partner drinks - not all the time now, thank God, but he had a couple of bottles of wine tonight. Partly because of this I felt sad and down. He hasn't been drinking much at all in the last few weeks though. I hate alcohol. ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 12 Nov 2009 14:56:25 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/alcohol-t1231.htm#11128 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/alcohol-t1231.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/don-t-really-know-how-i-m-feeling-t1246.htm logical-cents Kinda angry, annoyed, sad, disappointed etc. Not sure which. Just found out that a friend of mine got married on Saturday. We've been friends since we were about 12, she started at school after coming from South Africa and we became close friends, we done everything together. Our family's became friends as well, and were there all through their parents split up etc, we done so much together, usually the 6 of us kids and their father and sometimes mum, and sometimes all four adults as well. I ... The Ventilation Chamber Wed, 18 Nov 2009 09:09:48 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/don-t-really-know-how-i-m-feeling-t1246.htm#11277 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/don-t-really-know-how-i-m-feeling-t1246.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/fantasies-t1190.htm Angelique message deleted The Ventilation Chamber Sat, 31 Oct 2009 21:07:32 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/fantasies-t1190.htm#10739 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/fantasies-t1190.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/gosh-t1240.htm qwerky90 I could be happy happy, then i'm not as you say 'down' but I do feel weird and not right!! I went to another councillor yesterday and the person is very nice and understands well. Am going next week too, so hopefully it'll do me some good. When i'm eating something I shouldn't, doing something I really shouldn't be I say to myself.... "Ah, it'll be ok, I won't be here for much longer, I can do what I want for now"..*sigh* When I know that isn't true (well it's not allowed ... The Ventilation Chamber Sun, 15 Nov 2009 07:37:14 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/gosh-t1240.htm#11195 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/gosh-t1240.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/mumble-mumble-contains-swear-words-t1230.htm Paddy2 I was at a local supermarket today, waiting to be served. I dunno why these folk feel the urge, but an old coot started yacking and then invited me to 'guess his age'. I did. And I was right. (There's a 'trick' involved, but he didn't notice it). He is 79. Then, the old bastard asked me how old I am. '49', Paddy replied. 'No you're not, you're quite a bit older than 49, looking at you.' he says, loudly. Mumble fucking Mumble. Quite a bit older indeed. Bah Humbug. For ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:07:35 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/mumble-mumble-contains-swear-words-t1230.htm#11107 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/mumble-mumble-contains-swear-words-t1230.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/judging-the-book-by-it-s-cover-t1232.htm Angelique message deleted The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 12 Nov 2009 19:41:08 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/judging-the-book-by-it-s-cover-t1232.htm#11132 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/judging-the-book-by-it-s-cover-t1232.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-dont-know-bad-language-sorry-t997.htm _wizza_ I dont know what the fuck is up with me the past few weeks, im just so lost, what the hell am i doing?!!!! Is it possible to be over medicated to a point where nothing bothers you??? I am beginning to wonder as things have happen in the last few months, where , under "normal" circumstances, i would freak out, instead ive shrugged it off like no big deal, and now its seems as though its all catching up on me, and im finding it so fuking hard to deal with as its 1 thing after another ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 27 Aug 2009 17:10:21 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-dont-know-bad-language-sorry-t997.htm#8832 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-dont-know-bad-language-sorry-t997.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/ow-t1215.htm Paddy2 This permanent-pain shit is somewhat overrated in my humble opinion. I dunno how but I guess I have to - get over it Paddy - its a fact of life buddy. Yeah, I know but it 'urts, it really really does and the slightest movement leaves me feeling puffed and exhausted. I've done over 35 years of this spinal injury shit and to be honest, the novelty is wearing just a wee bit thin at the moment. I'm glad I've got mental illnesses as well to help take me mind of stuff, eh? Feck, it ... The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 09 Nov 2009 07:22:49 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/ow-t1215.htm#10996 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/ow-t1215.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/sinking-t1196.htm Angelique message deleted The Ventilation Chamber Tue, 03 Nov 2009 01:23:43 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/sinking-t1196.htm#10822 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/sinking-t1196.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/not-good-t1163.htm Anonymous I'm not in a very good head space today I can't explain myself for the life of me and no one is willing to listen to my explianation, they just put the full blame on me. And becasue people aren't willing to listen to me, I cry. (But I hide so they can't see me...) I feel useless. I'm tired and i'm working late. I'm sick of being like this. I'm tired of being walked over and taken advantage of. *sigh* The Ventilation Chamber Tue, 20 Oct 2009 03:02:42 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/not-good-t1163.htm#10472 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/not-good-t1163.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/stomps-into-room-t1200.htm logical-cents *throws toys out of cot and plonks self into corner, crosses arms and legs* hmph The Ventilation Chamber Wed, 04 Nov 2009 06:07:55 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/stomps-into-room-t1200.htm#10879 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/stomps-into-room-t1200.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/hard-to-handle-t1186.htm huttlady Hi all, i haven't been on for awhile. On the positive side things haven't gotten worse. On the negative, they haven't gotten much better either. The thing thats the hardest to handle is being so damn LONELY!!! I've pushed people away over the years and now that i'm prepared for & want company, i'm struggling to find any. I haven't made a new friend in years, since uni, and i don't know how, or where to meet people. Being so cut off from people makes daily life harder as i have no one to ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 29 Oct 2009 07:26:08 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/hard-to-handle-t1186.htm#10686 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/hard-to-handle-t1186.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/pissed-off-at-asb-bank-t1185.htm logical-cents Got given a cheque from work on Wednesday for a weeks wages from when I was in Henry Bennett that they hadn't paid out, took it to ASB to get it put into my account (ASB cheque too) asked them how long it would take to clear, they said 3 days, I asked if there was any way they could do it sooner, they said no. Speaking to parents last night Dad tells me that usually you can pay $20-$25 to get cheques cleared overnight. Went back to bank today to inquire about that, they said yes we do that, it's ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 29 Oct 2009 05:38:24 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/pissed-off-at-asb-bank-t1185.htm#10676 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/pissed-off-at-asb-bank-t1185.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/cries-t1175.htm logical-cents ]]> The Ventilation Chamber Sun, 25 Oct 2009 21:07:32 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/cries-t1175.htm#10596 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/cries-t1175.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/becks-s-monday-t1136.htm becks Hi all I'm feeling depressed today. I received some very sad family news about my sister yesterday and it has really had a big impact on me. I feel so many different emotions-shocked, sad, empty, lonely, useless, scared, sick, sore, raw and numb. At least I can articulate how I feel. It should help, but it doesn't. I feel so bad for her and I can't do anything to make her situation better other than be there for her. She told me I am a good sister so I am pleased that at least I can focus ... The Ventilation Chamber Sun, 11 Oct 2009 23:56:01 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/becks-s-monday-t1136.htm#10289 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/becks-s-monday-t1136.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/well-life-t1132.htm Anonymous I feel so angry and sad inside, but nothing shows on the outside.
I feel so sick and truly so trapped. It feels like I want to cry, but I just can't.

I wish people didn't care about me so I could just run far away.

Sorry,


I just don't understand. I'm sick of this place, I really am.]]> The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 08 Oct 2009 06:50:19 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/well-life-t1132.htm#10212 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/well-life-t1132.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/grrri-am-so-over-dealing-with-this-t1105.htm becks Ok winge over. Thanks for listening.]]> The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 01 Oct 2009 21:17:47 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/grrri-am-so-over-dealing-with-this-t1105.htm#10040 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/grrri-am-so-over-dealing-with-this-t1105.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/holy-fuc-t1106.htm OliviaHeartsMo this fucked up guy from my class messaged me and said i was a rebal and then was saying all this shit that appartly now everyone knows at my old school and he said i stuffed up the school and im stuffed up and kept saying it so i ened up saying "TAT GREAT well for your information since leaving hebron i have had suicide attempts,hating life regularly and dont give a dam shit about yr fucd up school cuz its all shit at leased i live in reality not some god dayum fucd up world where you ... The Ventilation Chamber Fri, 02 Oct 2009 04:04:24 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/holy-fuc-t1106.htm#10049 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/holy-fuc-t1106.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-m-a-failure-t1100.htm logical-cents If it's not bad enough that I spent most of this morning at home crying over anything I got to work today and the boys had left a pallet full of stock in the chiller, and hadn't even touched the frozen pallets and as a result you couldn't even get in the freezer door without climbing over the pallets, for bout the first 2 hours I was just wandering around, trying to work out where to start and what to do coz the shop wasn't full either. After I realised that it wasn't achieving anything, and ... The Ventilation Chamber Wed, 30 Sep 2009 10:32:27 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-m-a-failure-t1100.htm#10012 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-m-a-failure-t1100.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/blahhhlist-of-crapinspired-to-do-after-reading-another-members-post-t984.htm OliviaHeartsMo 1.I go day each day with no purpose,living today for no tommorrow,i dont do anything and only leave the house to have a smoke or go to school. 2.im under CYFS so now i live in fear that at any moment i could get moved somewhere new at any time,and im scared of if i do one thing bad someone can call my social worker and i will get taken away. 3. i have one strike left at my caregivers house, which makes me scared tat if i do something wrong they will call up my social worker -the not ... The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 24 Aug 2009 08:34:48 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/blahhhlist-of-crapinspired-to-do-after-reading-another-members-post-t984.htm#8671 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/blahhhlist-of-crapinspired-to-do-after-reading-another-members-post-t984.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/flat-tyre-t1089.htm Paddy2 Bugger. My mobility scooter has a puncture in one of its tyres. And it be a tubeless tyre, it be, so I can't fix it. Bugger, bugger, bugger. Luckily, there is a tyre shop a few hundred metres down the road. Unluckily, I generally need a mobility scooter for me to travel a few hundred metres these days. I can't even use me car, unless I can scoot out to where its parked, Bugger. Have I said that yet? Bugger. So, I guess I shall be walking it. Which mean, I need both ... The Ventilation Chamber Sat, 26 Sep 2009 08:08:20 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/flat-tyre-t1089.htm#9898 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/flat-tyre-t1089.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/recipe-ideas-please-t1084.htm Paddy2 I’m looking for some recipes for fresh cat meat please – maybe a casserole or something – something that cooks the cat slowly and a damn sight more tenderly than she deserves, preferably. No, I’m not all that well pleased with That Bloody Tabby tonight, just in case you had not noticed. I had to go to my doctors today, and I locked the cat inside, as per, (or purr?) with ample food and fresh milk out for her. I got some more milk on the way home but didn’t get bread, ‘cos I have to ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 24 Sep 2009 08:31:02 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/recipe-ideas-please-t1084.htm#9857 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/recipe-ideas-please-t1084.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/why-the-hell-did-i-listen-to-my-parents-t1076.htm logical-cents Thursday night they all but kicked me out, made me feel very wanted and like it was too much trouble for me to be here. So I decided that I would go home late Friday afternoon. Friday comes, weather is perfect and lovely. Parents manage to convince me to stay until Saturday as planned. During the night it rains. Get up Saturday morning, heaps of strong wind, wet patches outside, and I've got to travel home. Bloody brilliant, someone who pretty much has no confidence anymore in driving, driving ... The Ventilation Chamber Fri, 18 Sep 2009 20:09:03 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/why-the-hell-did-i-listen-to-my-parents-t1076.htm#9683 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/why-the-hell-did-i-listen-to-my-parents-t1076.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/grrr-t1058.htm Me A TM member won a ring off me 17th August. There has been excuse after excuse for not paying but I finally gave her one more week cause I felt sorry for her. Today she deposited only half the money I asked why and she said it's cause that was all she had. I have just sent her another email giving her two more weeks to finish paying ( she said that she gets paid fortnightly ) I have since looked at her feed back to find she has bought a lot off other traders since winning my ring. I am so angry ... The Ventilation Chamber Fri, 11 Sep 2009 09:47:29 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/grrr-t1058.htm#9463 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/grrr-t1058.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/tv-nz-stopping-two-daytime-soaps-t1067.htm Me The young and the restless and the days of our lives. I love the young and the restless. The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 14 Sep 2009 03:00:33 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/tv-nz-stopping-two-daytime-soaps-t1067.htm#9530 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/tv-nz-stopping-two-daytime-soaps-t1067.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/you-know-what-t1059.htm peterpam onwards and upwards, decided to edit this post as I felt it inapropriate The Ventilation Chamber Sat, 12 Sep 2009 07:06:21 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/you-know-what-t1059.htm#9478 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/you-know-what-t1059.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-m-not-sure-what-to-do-t1044.htm Charlie Lately there have been some HUGE arguments with G and I, and they have been getting louder, and it just feels like he is about to snap a lot more than he used to. On more than one occasion, he has backed me in to a corner, and makes me feel unsafe. He hasn't actually hit me, but according to his ex, he hit her a few times, and has a habit of idolizing someone, if he can't get them. Which makes me even more uncomfortable, because he sees this girl at every single motorsport event. And ... The Ventilation Chamber Tue, 08 Sep 2009 10:21:14 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-m-not-sure-what-to-do-t1044.htm#9346 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-m-not-sure-what-to-do-t1044.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/stupid-woman-t1055.htm britelite Pat I read your idiot man vent thread and thought...what the hell...I have been a bloody stupid idiot this week too...and I am SO angry at myself about it...so here is my effort for this week on tuesday arvo I was running the vat wash...it was double wash day...meaning that a hot alkali wash is chased through with a cold acid wash...I did the alkali wash as usual...filled the tub with cold and went to add the acid only to find the 20 litre container it is measured out of was empty...the ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 10 Sep 2009 21:32:02 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/stupid-woman-t1055.htm#9434 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/stupid-woman-t1055.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/just-generally-angry-at-the-world-t1013.htm imnotfallingapart Well i had the day off school today because yesterday i almost broke down in front of my english class and I'm so sick of people asking me what is wrong and being nosy and trying to be helpful. Now my folks are pissed at me and saying if i have another day off school i have to go back to counselling. NOT KEEN. Hate counsellors with a passion, they only make things feel worse for me, and yet my parents assume that sending me back there will magically make me happy and keen to go to school everyday. ... The Ventilation Chamber Wed, 02 Sep 2009 01:05:27 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/just-generally-angry-at-the-world-t1013.htm#9063 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/just-generally-angry-at-the-world-t1013.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/problem-with-suicidal-friends-t1052.htm OliviaHeartsMo Ok so i have alot of suicidal friends and they real cool and all but the constant worry of loosing them at any point in time is taking a toll on me, the problem is whithout them all i really dont have other friends so having 'mental' friends has become rather normal but its pissing the heck out me... My issue is tat ill tell some of my lets call the SF(Suicidal Friends) about my life my struggles and blah de blah and then i ask them if they have felt tat way and they so no and tell me there ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 10 Sep 2009 08:36:44 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/problem-with-suicidal-friends-t1052.htm#9417 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/problem-with-suicidal-friends-t1052.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/idiot-man-t1051.htm Paddy2 I had to go and do a few things in town today. I went on my mobility scooter as usual and the entire trip in, I 'knew' something wasn't right - there was something I needed that I didnt have with me. I checked my pockets, I checked the basket on the scooter, I checked my pack with the books in it, I checked me wallet, nup, not clues there. Something didn't feel quite right but I couldnt work out what it might be. So, I kept on scooting off into town, got to my first stop, went to ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 10 Sep 2009 08:13:11 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/idiot-man-t1051.htm#9416 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/idiot-man-t1051.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/terrifiedconfusedscrewed-t1012.htm Mere.Kat This is just kate talk. But im scared. Sometimes i cant breath,my heart isnt broken anymore. Its gone. I dont beleive in love,in a romantic way. I dont beleive in the male species. If they havent let you down yet they either havent had the chance or your not close enough for it to hurt enough yet. I do beleive in innocence. But it seems no-one else does. I beleive in darkness, because i cant see the light. Or i can but i have to wear sunglasses. And i cant quite touch the ... The Ventilation Chamber Tue, 01 Sep 2009 09:23:25 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/terrifiedconfusedscrewed-t1012.htm#9043 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/terrifiedconfusedscrewed-t1012.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/pissed-off-t1011.htm logical-cents Sorry just need to have a vent. No replies please as I'm likely to snap. Have to go see the bloody counsellor again on Thursday and don't want to but don't have a choice. Am sick of my computer deciding to just turn itself off when it feels like it for no apparent reason. Am sick of having to walk all around the damn car to lock it using the passenger door because for some reason the stupid key 9/10 will not turn to lock using the drivers door, couple of guys at work reckon it's probably ... The Ventilation Chamber Tue, 01 Sep 2009 08:50:05 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/pissed-off-t1011.htm#9042 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/pissed-off-t1011.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/damn-it-all-t1001.htm logical-cents
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]]> The Ventilation Chamber Sat, 29 Aug 2009 02:50:59 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/damn-it-all-t1001.htm#8893 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/damn-it-all-t1001.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/genaral-t986.htm traceylee hi all im always depressed put a post on other day but noone reply have no family support live by myself have few friends i can rely on dont get out much just want to make new friends oh im 43 if that helps dnt have a partner either The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 24 Aug 2009 23:18:42 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/genaral-t986.htm#8688 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/genaral-t986.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/arghhh-t982.htm Chatzs et al not good day no idea why struggling to remain in control saw suport worker today and she was asking heaps of questions bout D.I.D and think its worn me out i dunno The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 24 Aug 2009 04:36:16 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/arghhh-t982.htm#8636 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/arghhh-t982.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/meh-t952.htm Anonymous Life Sucks. Everyone else on here seems to be miserable. Why not not moan about my own depressing existance. I hate not having a reason to get out of bed in the morning I hate being awake when everyone else is asleep, and being asleep when there are things I'm suppose to be doing. I hate not having the energy to even be able to express what is wrong with me. I hate feeling apathy to the point of making stupid decisions cos I just dont care any more. I hate ... The Ventilation Chamber Sat, 15 Aug 2009 00:41:41 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/meh-t952.htm#8330 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/meh-t952.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-don-t-know-if-i-can-do-this-much-longer-t951.htm logical-cents This lack of sleep. The amount of pain I'm in. My whole back aches, down my right shoulder, across my lower stomach, up the left side of ribs, down the right side of neck. I can't take much more of this!! Docs that tell ya not to take any pain killers or nothing, have they every been in this much pain?? Yes I realise that by taking them and working I risk a small possibility of doing more damage, but come on, I have to spend 40+ hours a week constantly bending and lifting and stretching up and ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 13 Aug 2009 14:15:58 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-don-t-know-if-i-can-do-this-much-longer-t951.htm#8309 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-don-t-know-if-i-can-do-this-much-longer-t951.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/panic-attacks-t956.htm labyrinth Please can someone give me some clues on dealing with these. They are becoming increasingly hard to control. I get pins and needles all the time and sometimes almost pass out. I find it so hard to just snap out of it. I find myself unable to breath in and the more I try the harder it is. I think I'm going to start cutting gain as thats the only way I know to end the panic. Or is there another way? Do you know? Its all becoming too much so quickly. The Ventilation Chamber Sun, 16 Aug 2009 14:33:01 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/panic-attacks-t956.htm#8353 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/panic-attacks-t956.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/redundancy-t778.htm Guerrilla Roach So I find out that I will be made redundant due to the governments line by line slashing of the contract that I work under. No money = no job. Well thanks John Key! I guess that people who provide job seeking help to those experiencing mental illness is an unworthy field to fund adequately. So I am, like many others around the world, in the search for a new job. A smile remains on my face but the uncertainty is none to easy to take. I must say that the stress is building as the moment approaches ... The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 04 Jun 2009 21:58:09 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/redundancy-t778.htm#5931 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/redundancy-t778.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/gah-t899.htm Anonymous This whole thing is rediculous..!!

I'm never going to change..]]> The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 20 Jul 2009 04:31:25 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/gah-t899.htm#7790 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/gah-t899.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/chat-archives-you-girls-t930.htm Paddy2 Sheesh, some of you ladies are very hard on yourselves. Anyone would think you were all sitting there typing with paper bags over your heads, to read some of the things you say about yourselves. Be kind to you, damnit - you're all beautiful. Sorry, my Guide Dogs name? Bruce. The Ventilation Chamber Fri, 31 Jul 2009 07:40:27 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/chat-archives-you-girls-t930.htm#8070 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/chat-archives-you-girls-t930.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-can-t-do-it-anymore-t872.htm Anonymous

It's killing me. I don't want to be here..]]> The Ventilation Chamber Sat, 04 Jul 2009 22:40:05 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-can-t-do-it-anymore-t872.htm#7471 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/i-can-t-do-it-anymore-t872.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/my-personal-list-of-crapola-in-my-life-t517.htm britelite 1...it doesn't look much like I am going to have a fulltime job here next season...the boss has said he needs to run through his budget to see if he can afford as many workers as he wants...and 'lucky me' if he cant then I get bumped down to being a relief worker. 2...whatever the outcome of job status we have to move...into a house that is filthy has 5 or more burnt out powerpoints and is missing a big pane of glass in one of the bedrooms...it also means that my son will have to ride his ... The Ventilation Chamber Sun, 22 Mar 2009 00:58:31 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/my-personal-list-of-crapola-in-my-life-t517.htm#3683 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/my-personal-list-of-crapola-in-my-life-t517.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/aarrgghhh-t865.htm _wizza_ maybe ive been misdiagnosed?? bipolar keep popin up in my head- so high for weeks and am now coming back down to this shitty arsed depression!!

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*straightens pjs turns off lights and goes to bed*]]> The Ventilation Chamber Mon, 29 Jun 2009 18:13:46 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/aarrgghhh-t865.htm#7293 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/aarrgghhh-t865.htm http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/not-after-answers-nor-seeking-attention-my-vent-t854.htm Anonymous RE: STORM I AM SICK OF STORM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !#@!@#!##%!! AND NO I DON'T FEEL ANY BETTER! I WANT IT OVER! I AM SICK OF DEPRESSION - SICK OF FK'N BI-POLAR SICK OF WANTING IT OVER , BUT NOT BEING ABLE TO BECAUSE IT WOULD HURT OTHERS I CAN'T LEAVE MOLLY ARRRRRRRRRRRHH DON'T LEAVE A MESSAGE CAUSE RIGHT NOW I BITE The Ventilation Chamber Thu, 25 Jun 2009 07:26:41 GMT http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/not-after-answers-nor-seeking-attention-my-vent-t854.htm#7124 http://thebigblackdog.forumotion.net/the-ventilation-chamber-f8/not-after-answers-nor-seeking-attention-my-vent-t854.htm